I realised that I've been pretty angsty lately, with a lot of rants or complaints. I haven't actually taken some time to feel thankful for what I have ♥ Oh, and I have a lot. I lead a very blessed life, and I know that. I just feel like I should be giving some appreciation to a very special person in my life. No, Mother's Day or Father's Day is over. I also thank my friends enough.
Today, I want to thank the very special person in my life: Jian Hung ♥
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Now, it's no secret that I've been together with Jian Hung for over a year now. Somewhere around this time a year ago, our relationship reached a wall. It was a wall, that required us to put down so much pride to get over, or we could just give up and walk away. Despite my previous relationships where I chose to keep my pride and walk off, I held on this time.
Throughout this year, Jian Hung has been there for me in the happy and sad days. He was there with me when I was worried for my family and cried secretly. He was there with me when I received happy news and was screaming for joy. He was there when I cried over sappy dramas, or when I got so annoyed I burst into tears.
I admit that our relationship isn't the most perfect. We fight, a lot. We can fight over the smallest things that don't matter, like what to eat for dinner. Sometimes, the fight escalates into something deeper than just meal arguments. We cry, we scream at each other, and we turn away. Sometimes, we run away.
But here's something that went different from my previous relationships: we come back. After all those fights, we come back together. We say sorry, we cry and hug. We talk about something funny, and laugh that argument off. And sometimes, I like to believe that this would be enough for the rest of my life. Days like this, I believe in that even more so.
If there was one thing we did right, we never argued in front of others. We refused to, and we continue to believe in this. A fight between couples, should stay within the couple. Although it was a shaky understanding at the beginning, I think we're really establishing that now. We don't like to disagree with each other in front of others, we hate that.
And for that, I really thank him ♥ Because he agrees with me, a lot. He agrees with me so that I don't have to feel sad over changing my opinion. He agrees with me so that I feel supported and happy. He knows I like to feel that I am correct, he understand my pride.
Many a times I said that he spoils me, and that's true. He gives in to my whines, cries, and tantrums. I like to think of him as an angel sent to me by God as a punishment for him. These days, I start to think that what I thought was true.
After a whole bunch of sappy, cheesy talk about my successful relationship and happiness, and how sweet my boyfriend is, here's what I really want to say to him.
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Jh, you are the love of my life. I was a mess before I met you. I never knew what being happy feels like, I never could settle down. I wandered from people to people, hoping to find the peace I feel when I am by your side now. And then, I met you. With one look across the circle, I felt a feeling I never did feel before in my life.
You came into my life, song by song. From "I'm Yours" to "It's Time", you've made me feel loved again and again. You're like this magic pair of hands, that untangles every knot I have. Whenever I feel like it's a dead knot and I get frustrated over untangling it, you come in and take one second to untangle it. You do it so effortlessly, with a smile on your face.
There were days we fought, many in fact. But the best thing about us isn't the fights we've been through, it's the way we love each other. Some people say that you can never truly and properly love someone until you can love yourself. Before I met you, I didn't love myself. I despised the person I was, and the person I used to be before that.
You are magical, because you made me love myself while loving you. You made me love myself day after day, and manage to love me at the same time too. The best part about this, you never even tried. It comes so natural for you, to make me feel like the most blessed girl to have ever existed.
You are the answer to all the questions I've ever had in my life, and you will continue to be the answer to any questions I will ever have in future. You are the light in darkness, and you are the love of my life. I love you, and I can't imagine another day without loving you. I want to be with you, everyday, for the rest of my life.
Even if it means arguing over silly stuff and lazing in on weekends, I want to love you. I want to feel the way I've felt for the past year, for the rest of my life. Sometimes, especially now, I believe that's enough. I believe we're enough. Thank you for everything, and I will continue to thank you for the days ahead of us ♥♥♥
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Ok that was really sappy and cheesy and disgusting. But you know what? I am proud of my relationship ((and my boyfriend)) and he deserves to know this. :)
This is for you. I know you don't like Lea Michele's voice but this song is really sweet.
And for that, I really thank him ♥ Because he agrees with me, a lot. He agrees with me so that I don't have to feel sad over changing my opinion. He agrees with me so that I feel supported and happy. He knows I like to feel that I am correct, he understand my pride.
Many a times I said that he spoils me, and that's true. He gives in to my whines, cries, and tantrums. I like to think of him as an angel sent to me by God as a punishment for him. These days, I start to think that what I thought was true.
After a whole bunch of sappy, cheesy talk about my successful relationship and happiness, and how sweet my boyfriend is, here's what I really want to say to him.
//
Jh, you are the love of my life. I was a mess before I met you. I never knew what being happy feels like, I never could settle down. I wandered from people to people, hoping to find the peace I feel when I am by your side now. And then, I met you. With one look across the circle, I felt a feeling I never did feel before in my life.
You came into my life, song by song. From "I'm Yours" to "It's Time", you've made me feel loved again and again. You're like this magic pair of hands, that untangles every knot I have. Whenever I feel like it's a dead knot and I get frustrated over untangling it, you come in and take one second to untangle it. You do it so effortlessly, with a smile on your face.
There were days we fought, many in fact. But the best thing about us isn't the fights we've been through, it's the way we love each other. Some people say that you can never truly and properly love someone until you can love yourself. Before I met you, I didn't love myself. I despised the person I was, and the person I used to be before that.
You are magical, because you made me love myself while loving you. You made me love myself day after day, and manage to love me at the same time too. The best part about this, you never even tried. It comes so natural for you, to make me feel like the most blessed girl to have ever existed.
You are the answer to all the questions I've ever had in my life, and you will continue to be the answer to any questions I will ever have in future. You are the light in darkness, and you are the love of my life. I love you, and I can't imagine another day without loving you. I want to be with you, everyday, for the rest of my life.
Even if it means arguing over silly stuff and lazing in on weekends, I want to love you. I want to feel the way I've felt for the past year, for the rest of my life. Sometimes, especially now, I believe that's enough. I believe we're enough. Thank you for everything, and I will continue to thank you for the days ahead of us ♥♥♥
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Ok that was really sappy and cheesy and disgusting. But you know what? I am proud of my relationship ((and my boyfriend)) and he deserves to know this. :)
This is for you. I know you don't like Lea Michele's voice but this song is really sweet.
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