Sunday was a tiring day 'cause I was rushing around and all that. I had NDP in the afternoon but I went out with my mom in the morning so I was pretty much rushing around ): I was even late for NDP and I feel damn bad to Laoshi .. Sigh. But practice was great ! ♥ I had loads of fun laughing around with the dancers, and we really enjoyed dancing ^^ Love everything about them !!
That's pretty much my Sunday 'cause Dance took up the afternoon and night .. Which was pretty much my entire day :P
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Today I had a fair amount of sleep, considering I slept for 10 hours !! ♥ I know Yuqi's going to love me for this (: Then I played Maple all the way till evening before I rushed out to meet Awesome Freaks at J-cube ! :D There was 7/9 AF today, and we had dinner at some cafe, ♥♥ Talked and laughed a lot at ridiculous stuffs, and even had Ice-Cream at Marble Slab !
Took a gazillion photos before I came home (: It's as if we never drifted, and spent everyday together. I love this warmth about us.
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Honestly, I want to touch on more sensitive stuffs today. Honestly I never had time to read people's blogs or check on tweets on people I care for a lot, for a long time already ): Talking to Charmian today prompted me to do so, and I did.
I realized how many people were not really happy in their lives, and how much things have changed for them .. For the good or the bad. I never knew until now .. And it's because I never actually bothered to check things out, ask them, show concern ever since school started for me. Then it occurred to me that it's already been half a semester .. Which is 2 months.
School started for 2 months, and it has been amazing for me ♥ I don't deny it because I've forged great friendships, got closer to a lot of people, found someone that makes waiting worthy, and all those happy things ^^ My life has been filled with so much stuffs, and I was so preoccupied with my own happiness that I neglected that of those I claim to "care for".
But as much as I hate admitting this, I just don't know what to do for them anymore.
Today, I see how people around me are having problems .. They are struggling. Friends who feel affected whenever we talk about our current happy lives, friends who are bogged down with personal problems, friends who are dying in schoolwork, who feel left out .. Who can't fit in.
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And I know that someone out there .. is still hurting. Because of me. I know you probably hate me, and I guess you un-following me on twitter kinda shows something huh (: I never wanted this to happen and I'm sorry. I know I never talked to you about it .. And it seems as if I did all those on purpose. But I really didn't. I know you're still suffering, still in pain.
It's awkward these days .. The atmosphere in dance when both of us are around. And I know neither of us wants to leave, and we're trying to pretend that we're just strangers.
I hope it stops hurting for you. And I know it's pointless, but I'm sorry. I'm sorry 'cause I was the one who told her to tell you .. I'm sorry 'cause I chose to hurt you when you were so amazing. I'm sorry.
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Pretty emotional post, I'd say :P But a heart-felt one, definitely ♥
I felt that I have to address a lot of stuffs that I kept in for a really long time, and now's probably a better time to say it ^^ In reality, I'm actually really happy today :D
Like, I've had a really nice day ! ♥♥
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Hope the panda gets enough rest, and have lighter eye bags. I don't care how we talk, boring or interesting, at least we're talking (: And that's all that matters to me.
Together - JB ft. Jiyeon ♥
It's the people who make tough times bearable (':
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