Hello people I'm back ! ^^ Today's gonna be the usual post since I haven't updated since forever so yeah :P But I'll touch on something else later anyway (:


Haven't actually blogged normally since last Monday. Which meant it's a week worth of posts ! And yep, it's my holidays !! ♥ But honestly, there hasn't been much going on this holidays ): It's a sad 2 weeks only, but it was still filled everyday, nonetheless.

Tuesday and Wednesday was packed with filming for "Too Little Too Late" :D And I'm proud to say that we completed it and today we submitted our Project ♥♥ Charlotte and I spent the entire Saturday trying to confirm everything + complete the editing + checking etcetc. But we had our fair share of laughter talking rubbish on Skype as well ! ^^ It's really sweet how we grew from strangers to the friends we are now, ♥ I love Charlotte a lot, really.


Thursday, otherwise, was rather fun ! ♥ I met Xuejing in the morning where we went over to Nanhua to collect her Testimonial (: There, we studied with Nat and Gin :D But it wasn't that productive anyway, oops :P Rushed over to Clementi where we met Yuqi and went over to NUS ^^ Prepared with the rest of the Dancers and gave Yuting + Kelly an early birthday surprise ♥


It wasn't a grand celebration or what, but I hope they enjoyed it and felt our love (: Practice was productive + ultra fun :D I love Koonhui's Dance ♥♥ I always enjoy being in his item ^^ Ohhh, this year there's Me, Yuqi, Xuejing, Kelly, Yuting, Yanting, Yingpei, Yokekay, YingYing, Adrian, Soonxuan, Nicholas and Yonglin ! ♥ It's a fun group and I love everyone there.


But it's missing something ): It's missing my boyfriend .. I really miss having her around. What's dancing Koonhui's item or AHA if Huiyi isn't around with me. I miss having her to go "Huhhhh?" with me at complicated dance steps, laugh over the most ridiculous things that nobody understands, and someone who will have meals with me before/after Dance Practice .. ♥ I miss having her around and Dance isn't complete without her. Really.


Dancing at NUS Hall made me reminisce about 2011's AHA, Bereft ♥ We had late night practices at the hall, with KH sprouting vulgarities for more than half of the practice, him stopping the dance to sing the lyrics, us breaking the umbrellas and all that funny rubbish !! ^^ I really miss those times, that year. That year when we weren't on separate paths .. When everything was so simple (':


Back to the topic, I studied with mahhh LXJ after practice @ Starbucks before we went home on Thursday ^^ Love her for that !! ♥


Ohh and I spent Friday with Zodall, ♥♥ Ahhhhh yes (: Watched "Now You See Me" with Haz, IsaacNg, Joel and ZN ! ^^ Then Joel, ZN and I went over to Bukit Timah for a late dinner :D It was kinda ridiculous but funny anyway ~ Love the days spent with Zodall, whoever they may be (:

Saturday was boring .. And so was Sunday ): I had NDP practice on Sunday where we had to stay under the sun for idk-how-long-but-we-were-burning so yeah. The juniors made everything more bearable I guess ? ^^ We had loads of fun laughing at Shi En over stupid stuffs, and saying that he was being marked oops :P Oh, and I'm really thankful for Aloysious ! ♥ He's the nicest guy ever.


Today was a family day and I don't like to elaborate much on these. But it was a well-spent day (:


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Honestly .. I miss you a lot. Days without you make me think a lot .. It gives me a lot of empty time to think about shits that shouldn't even come to my mind. And I start to feel afraid, that someday things are going to change. Each day I feel so happy, yet each day I'm afraid for the day when your answer comes. When you decide to stop giving me hopes, and decide to end my dreams.

Somehow, I'm afraid of that day. I really don't want it to come. Not yet.


"Being with you, he said he was happy. He said he wanted to have a bit more of that happiness that doesn't make sense." ♥

That's how I feel.


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Oh I mentioned that I wanted to touch on something else right? Yeah ! ^^

I want to talk about the changes in life. And how I'm really growing tired of it. In 2011, it didn't occur to me that the happiness I felt back then will ever be gone .. That everyone's going to grow up and move on with their lives .. And so will I. I admit that I'm not still behind, in the past. I've moved on as well, with my life. Perhaps, even further than some others. But I'm still detesting this change.

I really can't express how each day, as I watch my friends grow further apart from me, I feel like I'm on the brink of tears. Truthfully, I miss my AHA 2011 Gang ♥ That was the best year of AHA for me, and one of the best Dance performance I've ever gone through in my life. They were amazing company, great friends .. And we were a close-knitted family. I miss all that about us.


I miss Bereft, Interim Link, The Quest and 那些年 ♥♥
Those were few of the best learning experiences I've had in Dance. For the entire December, we were in the studio almost everyday ! We had practice to practice, packed lunch from the nearby Hawker Centre etc. We even considered staying over for the actual performance days ^^


After AHA ended, we were still close as ever (': 那些年 had Steamboat @ Lukhei's, Bereft/The Quest etc had Steamboat @ My house + Spent Christmas in Town + Countdown for 2012 at Yingying's !! ♥ Remember how we played bridge every single day, all the time? And how we played bridge from 23:59 31/12/11 to 00:00 01/01/12 ?? :D

I miss those days .. I miss everything about those people in my life back then. Sure, none of you actually left my life ♥ But sadly, none of us are as close anymore. '95 batch moved on to JC Life, Jianhao/Jingkai/Solo's in Army now, '97 are having their Os and for those in my year? Well, we've moved on to our Poly Lives as well.


Nothing .. Will ever be the same again.

"I wasn't even prepared .. And I had to say Goodbye. Now? I'm left with the memories of our yesterdays."

Ready, Set, Don't Go - Miley Cyrus + Billy Ray Cyrus ♥
It's a song he wrote for her; A song that detest changes in life .. When someone grows and needs to move on .. And you just gotta let them no matter how you wish it weren't true.