Happy New Years' Eve ! ♥

2010 has been the most amazing year of my life, filled with the things that have
changed me so much. Experienced things I've never done before and felt all the
feelings & emotions I never thought I'd feel, ♥ Whether it's the tears or the smiles,
I've never regretted anything that happened in this year !




Because with regrets, comes unhappiness & fear for the future O.o But if you are able
to live life as it is ... To cherish each moment, Life is actually pretty fine after all ! ♥
I don't know if I'll be ending 2010 in tears or smiles, but I know one thing:
That I'm going to miss this hell of a year :D




Amazing is the right word, because as I look back ... Everything would just
amaze me to how it actually happened ! :P Everything, from the start to the end ! ^^
I'm glad I lived well in 2010, I'm glad ... ♥




2011 is going to be yet another challenge, but I'm going to face it. And this time,
I'm not going to face it alone either (: Again, I'm still going to be happy !
This upcoming year, is going to be very tough. But I am not afraid of it ...




Because I'll be with 206'10, I'll be with 302'11;
I'll be with Nan Hua Dance Society, I'll be with Batch '96;
I'll be with Dance Inspiration, I'll be with Clique;




I'll be with Sarah & Annabel, and I'll be with everyone ♥




Thanks 2010, for having been an awesome & fulfilling year.
Goodbye ... Alongside with everything that has happened in this 365days.




Hello 2011, ♥

I hope I'm ready to welcome you this time :D

Tomorrow's New Years' Eve.

Today was screwed up, in some sense or another. Well, I thought it was :P Morning was
okay, Sabrina kind of made my morning ♥ Went out to meet somebody and many many
stuffs happened ): I won't say what, but it was very emotional. Glad that I got those words out of me already, ♥ And all the tears that dropped too ...

2010 was a pretty screwed up year, in my eyes >:( It started off with CCA
extravaganza, which was ... Nice ? :D First one after all. Dance kind of filled up this year
and many drama too ! But some nice stuffs, of course ! ♥ Important people have left
my life, but likewise amazing people have entered it too ^^

People like Sarah, whom I know I can tell everything to ♥ I can count on her to be there
for me all the time ! And I know she's someone who would always make me feel much
better after I talk to her ... ♥ Thanks Sarah, for everything (: You're like a best friend
to me. We'll continue being like so in 2011 & forever right ?

Life has been pretty tiring and I have no confidence of staying strong.
I'm going to cry, until my eyes are swollen ...

But I'll be strong after that ! ♥ Wipe the sadness away and continue standing !
Stand strong and Believe, because I'll need to ! (:

To Pingping, Please cheer up. Thanks for being there, I really appreciate it alright (:
Everything's going to be alright, like I always tell you. I'll be okay, You too !

And to Jing, Thanks for that long message, I love you ♥

I was feeling pretty bad today, until I talked to Sarah ... ♥
Telling her everything makes everything seem okay already, seem better.
She gives me hope in life !

Love you, my dear :D My forever, ♥

I hope you're feeling better too already, alright !

These 2 days were amazingly crazy :P Boxing day was funny, Dancers came over to my
house & we cooked + baked, ♥ It turned out pretty well anyway, We accomplished it !
Rushed over and Had Chingay Practice :D Ran a few times before Laoshi talked
to us and we went up soon for the party ! ♥ Yay ! ^^

Spammed food, Photos, Chat, Fun & Stunts ^^ The few of us girls went around trying
to gang Yokekay ♥ Which succeeded in the end of course ~ Played a lot, and Koonhui
continued SD ! :D That was the best part ever. DarrenLee got injured though ... ):
Left around 8PM and we changed for Orchard Outing (;

Me, Huiyi, Yanting, Yokekay, Jianhao, Daryl, Koonhui, Weihong, Brandon, Jingkai,
Solo & Tianyi ! ♥ Walked around Orchard & Had our dinner ! :P It was boring.
Then we went around to take photos ! (: Total photos galore, I loved it ♥ Went off
soon, and Came home soon. was very tired -.-

Today was Sisters' Outing cum Natalie's Belated Birthday Surprise, ♥ All of us had
Ben & Jerry's, then went up to spam photos :D We played Truth/Dare and Surprised
Natalie loads ♥ I hope you loved it, Nat (: Spammed photos again & Had dinner at
Food Republic. Came home soon. It was the best day ever ^^

Gin didn't come today, which was sad ! ): But the 9 of us had fun too anyway !
Tomorrow's Dance already ♥ Gosh, I don't know to look forward or not -.- Somehow, I
don't. Because I don't get to sleep ... ! :P

Life isn't very easy, but I'll manage, I guess.

I love my boyfriend cum husband ♥

"If only time could rewind, if only I had realized things a lil' 15 days earlier."

I talked to her and I wondered, I wondered if things were really feeling the same again.

Just a dream - Nelly ! ♥ Everyone's been crazy over this song recently, Me too ! ):
I find the song pretty sad, but it can really make us feel deeply for it ... Sigh.

Merry Christmas, Everyone ! ♥
especially the little kids in this world, who still dream, about santa's arrival.

Happy 14th Birthday, Natalie ! ♥
hello waterfountain cum awesome batchmate, i love you ttm. the 6th year already.

These few days have been amazingly boring & crazy :P Days filled with joy and days
filled with tears (: However, it was still fruitful in some way or another ... ?
I loved Thursday though, it was awesome with the Anyhow Art people ^^ Pretty !
Heart-to-Heart talk with all of them was hilarious & entertaining, ♥

Well, I love them all ! And Christmas today was pretty too :D Spent the afternoon
with Yonglin @ Orchard walking around ! ^^ It was very much adorable of us. Rotted
& Met 206 people to watch Movie ♥ Gullivers' Travels should be R21, Seriously.
Anyway, we still had fun and it was still awesome and nice.

Running around in the rain is fun, especially when you walk from Somerset all the
way to Dhoby Ghaut and Orchard both ^^ It's hilariously fun ! ♥ Came home soon.
Tomorrow's P.A day ... ♥ Going to love it :D Merry Christmas, Everyone !

Santa, Please bless all the kids to have a beautiful one (:
Because not every child ... can afford to have their dreams shatter.

Loves !

Anyhow Art 2010 was a smashing success ! ♥

Well it turned out pretty well and hilarious, and I'm sure I loved it loads too ! :D

Friday: Had practice, Shopping with Xuejing in the morning for Christmas Presents (:
Accomplished a lot during practice although many stuffs screwed up too ): Had dinner
& Rehearsal ♥ My memory is vogue so don't blame me -.- It was really messy during
rehearsal, but I supposed things took a turn for the better after that :P

Saturday: 1st Show ! Shopping with Xuejing in the morning again, ♥ Then bought KOI
for everyone ^^ Practiced a bit and shared studio with everyone O.o Nobody really
had the mood to dance so Koonhui kind of gave up >:( Sorry ! Huiping, Clarice and
Yuanting came for the show ! ♥ Thanks all, you are awesome loads :D

Koonhui's item had some mistakes, but not bad (; Rotted a lot & Horny talk before
Laoshi's item ! :P Yuren & Jingkai are hilarious. Laoshi's item was awesome ... ♥
Finale was adorable too, We pulled Huiping up ! Ended and we got flowers ! Packed
up and Had supper with Awesomes ! ^^ Slept pretty early.

Sunday: Last show ! ): Had lunch with usuals and bought Flowers/Sweets for everyone.
We're so sweet, ♥ Chingay practice first, I feel damn bored of the dance -.- Sian !
Anyway practice was okay, I love Jiawei for always accompanying me ^^ Ended,
and we had dinner ! O.o Some unpleasant stuffs happened too.

Make Up and Costume Before we know it, it was showtime already ): Sec3s and
Sec4s came, played around & laughed loads ♥ Lucheng & DarrenLee came too, Yay ! :D
Injured my leg before the show, Awesome -.- Performed anyway, and It was the best !
Changed for Last Performance, and Spammed photos with everyone ... ♥

The last performance was awesome ! ^^ I loved it, and Finale too ! Went crazy, and
Kept screaming. Played around for very long & I proposed to Aloysius (: I gave my
flower to him :P Packed up, and Thanks Jianhao/Yonglin for carrying me much ! ♥
The girls wore our dresses and all of us went for Supper ♥

Ate with Xuejing & Yokekay ! (; I love the both of you most alright ! Rushed for the
last train and Took Cab home with Huiyi & Sixiu :D Came home soon. Slept until now.
These few days have been crazy ... ♥ & I loved it loads ^^ Love all of you, Let's
have fun @ Celebratory Day ! Thursday Thursday ! Huiyi, We'll miss you ):

SMS-ing Jonathan Lim now, and Missing Anyhow Art 2010 already.

Really don't know what to do, Really afraid to think of you ...
But I'm more afraid, that I'll fall back in love with you.

I can't afford to bear the pain anymore ):

I can't afford to face the heart break of you leaving once more !
I don't want to cry again.

"Please stop confusing me, Please stop making me feel so weird. Just what do I do."

As I get reminded of things a long time ago, I realized that today was the day for us ...

Halo - Beyonce ! ♥ Valerie used this song for her item, and The dance was amazing !
I loved it because it's so pretty (: Great Job everyone, and all the other dances.

Tired.

I'm tired, I want to sleep.
Having a fever and Feeling worse than before ):

But I want to wait for your message ...
How ?

53rd Day.

Today was hilarious :P My fever's not gone yet so it didn't turn out well anyway ):
Went shopping with Sabrina Teo for Christmas presents & I SAW YUANTING ! ♥ Epic !
Bought some SHINee stuffs too ! :D I feel happy when I buy SHINee stuffs ... ♥
She bought beer and wine and food, which is pretty weird -.-

Raining, so we rushed home. So far, already bought Xuejing/Huiping/Clarice/Adeline/
Shixuan/Annabel/Gindelin/Timothy/Tianyi's presents ^^ Still have some presents more.
Came home soon. She's wrapping her presents now, but doesn't want to give me my
present now >:( What a sister, ♥ I'm going to steal it somehow :P

Tomorrow's Shopping with Xuejing + Anyhow Art Rehearsal ♥ I hope things turn out to
be well (: I'm really afraid to screw up the performance ! Especially dragon ! O.o
My dears would be there to support us, so I think it'll be good, ♥ Loved :D

People come watch Anyhow Art 2010 ! ^^ It's cheap, It's nice & really pretty !
All the performances are awesome and all the effort we put in is amazing ttmxzczx.
Please come watch ! ♥ It would be worth your money !

Things seem so weird, I can't feel anything anymore ...
My feelings are numb and everything's weird ):

When I think of you ... I don't know what it feels like anymore !

I'm confused, You just confused all my thoughts.
I guess I'm just not so crazy in love with you any longer.

And now, he has come in once more.
Or maybe ... He didn't really leave my heart in the first place (:

"Everything feels weird, All the things are coming back to me. All the flashbacks."

It's been so long and so many things have passed us by, yet the memories do not fade..

Sweet Disposition - The Temper Trap ! ♥ The dance Koonhui choreographed for this is
just amazing, He should have done this item for Anyhow Art ): Maybe 2011, usuals ?

All in all: DANCE CHALET WAS AWESOME ♥

Anyhow Art in the afternoon of the 1st day, which comprised of rotting & playing ! ^^
I like Sweet Disposition's Dance; Cool (: Tied up the loose ends for AHA, &
settled some stuffs. Rushed to Pasir Ris where we had Dinner :D Super Dog ftw, Yay.
Bought stuffs for Barbecue, then rushed over the Chalet ... ♥

Same room as Huiyi, Jianhao, Koonhui, Jingkai & Tianyi ! ♥ Awesome people loads (;
Cards & Junk Food were spammed through the night, Totally didn't sleep ! -.-
Felt bad after playing the swings & Thanks Huiyi and Tianyi for accompanying me, ♥
Sent Huiyi to Pasir Ris with Tianyi, then both of us went back together ! :D

Ate Breakfast @ White Sands, then bought Breakfast for Junzheng & Tianyi O.o
Went WWW with Dancers ♥ It's fun & funny :P Had lunch @ Ehub KFC where I froze >:(
Arcade was fun, then Back to Chalet. It was a long walk, Thanks Tianyi for carrying
me back ! ♥ You're so awesome and sweet ^^

Thanks Jingkai for cycling me back the last part ! (: Rented bikes, Then Me,
Jingkai & Jonathan Lim went for a ride. Thanks Jonathan for accompanying me ... !
Spent the night rotting & cleaning up with Yokekay, ♥ Night Cycling was amazing.
Thanks to all the girls for taking care of me so much ... ♥ Love y'all :D

Thanks Tianyi for trying to slow down to wait for me, Sorry I didn't cycle with
you in the end ): Most Thanks for Jonathan Lim for taking care of me throughout ♥
If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have survived it ! :P Came back, Bathed & Died.
Until 11AM. Then left for home with Junzheng & Tianyi (;

Came home soon, went for Yoghurt with Huiping ^^ I loved it, ♥ Rotting now ):
Tomorrow's Slack Day, then Friday's AHA Rehearsal already O.o Really nervous ! :P
Fever not gone ... Sigh.

Hope it'll be gone soon ... ):

When she asked me to make a choice, I really didn't know how to !
I told myself that the answer would always be you ...

But somehow, I realized that over time, It doesn't seem so any longer.

Maybe we drifted, Maybe you just don't care ...
And maybe ... I don't love you anymore ):

I don't know why but when I think of this, It hurts.

"Having gone through so much and yet it felt like nothing has changed between us ..."

As the memories remind me of you, and all the things that happened, I kind of miss them.

Addicted - Stevie Hoang ! ♥ This song is really nice, and it keeps reminding me of
Tianyi because of what he did on sunday. But the song always reminds me of "him" ...

These few days have been hectic ! :P Dance Dance Dance and Going out and all that.
Wednesday had Anyhow Art, We 刁-ed a lot but it turned out well ! :D Thursday was a
Tiong People outing, ♥ Went shopping & movies with Huiping/Clarice ^^ Awesome ttm !
Had loads of fun and gossiping in the movie was amazing (;

Yesterday had Anyhow Art again, It was scary because Koonhui flared up ! ):
Sorry Koonhui, We'll try our best ♥ Had meal @ Marina Square (Steamboat Buffet) with
Yanting/Yingpei/Jingkai/Youzhuan/Brandon/Jianhao/Tianyi ! ♥ It was hilarious max :D
Played arcade too, Daytona Yay ! ^^ Today turned out pretty well too !

Anyhow Art for Laoshi's item is fun and challenging, ♥ The front part is pretty, &
the dragon is tiring >:( Well, With Koonhui leading it and me ending it O.o
Sorry Maycia, I'll marry you ! We ended and Had dinner with Huiyi/Yokekay/Yingpei/
Yanting/Jianhao/Youzhuan/Douglas/Terence/Jingkai/Yuren/Brandon/Tianyi ! ♥

Left soon and Came home soon. Tomorrow's AHA, Chingay & Rehearsal for AHA ! ^^
I hope it'll be fun, but it'll be tiring max ... ): Nevermind, I'll survive.
Tiring days ahead of me, Tiring week O.O Dance Chalet, Christmas Shopping & AHA :D
Finally AHA ♥ I hope things would turn out awesome, Yay (:

Chatting on MSN with Jingkai, Terence & Huiyi now ! :P Total Drama, Epic loads.
I think P.A people are the most awesome people ever ... ♥ Love all of you much ^^

I don't think my heart can take this anymore ):
It's not about heartbreak, it's not about the tears.

It's about disappointment ... All the lies you said ...

All the promises you made, Yeah I'm just disappointed !
Though I don't think you feel anything about it.

Sad huh ? ...

"Maybe I didn't really love you from the start, Maybe I was the one who didn't feel."

As I think of the things that went by, All the things have changed since that day ...

我不是你想像那么勇敢 - 梁文音 ! ♥ Heard this song from Maycia & Xinli today, Pretty nice.
I like the lyrics, and the melody is good too. But the melody is very prone to change ...

Good Morning, World :D I'm posting at such a weird time, but I like, so too bad.

Did something really stupid last night, Didn't know why I even tried ):
I thought they meant nothing ... I thought you meant nothing !
Then I realized that a piece of my heart still hurt, It still missed you a lot.

Never been able to love properly, Never been able to treat a person well.
I've always been a failure in this, and I don't blame anyone else but myself ...
When I look back; I'm sorry I kept those words in.

I wish you heard them ... ♥

On the other hand, Today seems to be a happy day ^^

I texted you until I fell asleep, I dreamt of you and your smiles ...
Today, I woke up to a message from you ! ♥

My 11:11 wish today, I wished for smiles today (:
Because I miss your smile, I love your smile so much !

Oh, and PingPing's back ^^
I missed you, Pingping ! ): You cheat me, I thought you yesterday come back.
Hope you had fun in M'sia, Got buy things back for us or not ? :P

Sweetard's finally back, ♥

Happy and Unhappy today !
Feeling so weird, Feeling so crazy.

I guess I just have a little missing Dance syndrome, ♥

Class chalet was awesome ! ♥ Dance in the morning on Friday, Back to the hall (: Love
our home. Laoshi finished up Modern and we practiced ^^ I like our ending, ♥
Lunch, and Slept with '96 Girls :D Followed by Measurements for clothes & Massaging.
Girls' version of Ganging is always hilarious and adorable :P

Danced many times of Cultural & Modern, then went down for Water Games ! ^^ Played a
lot of games, Group4 ftw ♥ We scored over 1000 points, Highest score :D Then
had BVG and Dismissed soon (; Walked to Clementi with '96, then Took MRT to Pasir Ris
with Yongjian/Tianyi/Xuejing ! ♥ It was a nice journey ~

Ate Cup Noodles before going, Thanks to those who brought us in ! Most of
them did the Barbecue while the 3 of us slept ^^ Awesome loads ... ♥ Slacked and went
for Midnight Movie, ♥ Watched Repunzel, Thanks Tianyi for letting me sleep much ! :D
Slept from 5AM to 7AM, then Breakfast + Wild Wild Wet !

It was damn fun, and Adeline joined us halfway ! (; Bathed and Had lunch. Then Me,
Xuejing & Tianyi slept awhile. Rushed out to rent bikes, Double Biked with Tianyi !
They started Barbecue again while we rotted ! ♥ In the end, gave up on the food
and Mr Chan ordered Mcdonalds' for everyone. Mr Chan ftw ... ♥

Chatted with him, he left & we went for Night Cycling (Except Annabel). Cycled
to Changi Village and East Coast before we went back. I love it ♥ Thanks
Tianyi for being there even when you were so tired already :P Love you loads ! ♥
Back to chalet, Collapsed straight. Slept all the way until 10.30AM.

Returned bikes and Checked out. Took MRT to Lavender with Xuejing & Tianyi, then
waited for P.A People (: Koonhui finished up the item, Yay ♥ It's really nice O.o
Practiced, then had Chingay Practice. Darren came then ! Went up Studio, and
Laoshi finished Chingay for our segment, ♥ GroupA with Janessa, I love it ^^

Rotted loads, and she went off ): Waited for the rest, Gossiped with '94 ! Hahah :D
Had dinner @ Bugis with Huiyi/Yanting/Yuting/Yingpei/Yokekay&Brother/Wenxuan/
Jingkai/Douglas/Terence/Jonathan/Tianyi/Ziwei/Jasper ! ♥ Took MRT, Came home soon.
Tired out, Slept throughout the night, 12 Hours ftw :P

Class Chalet + Dance was awesome, ♥ I'm tired out still, SMS-ing Yongjian/Elijah/
Tianyi/Jasper ! ^^ My husband is so cute and random !

Holidays, Here I come !
Good bye Dance, I'll be back in 2weeks time ♥

Hello, Sleep :D

You're the best thing that has ever happened to me (:

"Sometimes I wish the words meant something, As I think back on all your lies ..."

I wish you meant something to me, I wish it was like the past. But sadly ... You're nothing.

Just the way you are - Bruno Mars ! ♥ People are crazy over this song and I wonder
what's so nice about it. Don't really like the melody but the lyrics are quite cute.

Today was mad O.o Class Allocations out in the morning, 302 sounds ... I don't know.
Dance started, Awesome loads ! ♥ Unpleasant stuffs happened, Made many of us kind of
unhappy ): Practiced for Modern, then Laoshi continued the Dance, ♥ Finished quite
a lot, then Had our lunch ! :D Thanks cultural people for buying lunch for us !

Sleeping time, Chatted with Tianyi ^^ Slept awhile, then Massage etc. I was ganged
by Michelle and Huiping again >:( poor me ... Hope everyone had their laughs ... ♥
Continued Modern until the ending (; I love our dance ! ♥ Danced for cultural,
and They danced for us too ! I like the different concepts.

Debriefing and Dismissed soon. Changed & Took Bus to Clementi with Xuejing/Gindelin/
Yuqi/Tenghwee/Lucheng/Tianyi/Jasper/DarrenLee ! ♥ I love times we spend together :D
Took MRT and Came home soon. Tomorrow's Dance & Class Chalet, ♥ I hope it turns out
really well ! ^^ Seems like it'll be fun, Buy Beer Buy Beer :P

Chatting on MSN with Jingkai & Sihwee, SMS-ing Jasper ! :D

Sometimes, I can't be bothered anymore -.-
If things are going to be like this ... Let it be then.

Life's happy with you around ♥
I'm not going to ask for more, I just ask for things to stay like so !

Because Contentment, is bliss (:

"Tears still roll down at the thought of you. It's been so long, I still miss you."

When I look at you, I sense the feelings. I sense the pain I feel, I sense the etched love.

私奔到月球 - 五月天 & 陈绮贞 ! ♥ The song is really nice and sweet, I like listening to
it, especially the melody. It's so sweet, like a secret crush or first love ! :P

Today was cool (: Had breakfast with Gindelin/Tianyi/Jasper in the morning ! ♥ Nice.
Walked to School, Rushed in fact. Dance ♥ Warm Ups and 过三关, then Laoshi finished
up Cultural while Modern did 舞狮 again :D Learnt a bit more drums from Jasper !
Went up to practice our moves, then Spammed flips :P

Laoshi did Modern, Finished up the 2nd Part ! ^^ It's really cool and tiring much !
Had lunch and they didn't buy food for us -.- Nevermind. Slack time, and Sleeping ♥
I was ganged by Michelle & Huiping ... ): WHY ME !? Laoshi continued Modern,
and we finished quite a lot today ! :D I'm real glad, ♥

Danced once for Cultural to see, and Debriefing ! Dismissed soon, Modern Girls had
our Cheer done (; Me, Gindelin, Shilei, Chan, Nat, Twins met the Sec1s O.o weird ...
Well, Didn't really matter anyway. Left. Walked to Clementi with Xuejing/Yuqi/
Huiping/Gindelin/Shilei/Tenghwee/Lucheng/Zhenyang/Bryan/Jasper/DarrenLee ! ♥

Took MRT with Huiping and Came home soon. Tomorrow's Dance ... ♥ Please let it be
a better day ^^ I want to be happy everyday, Remember ? Tiring day, thought about
loads of stuffs & feel weird O.o Putting yourself in others' shoes works well, ♥

I really feel like giving up sometimes, Things seem so impossible.
But like Laoshi said, 你是个年轻人，就活得像一个年轻人，什么事都跟它FIGHT ! ♥

Fight till the end, Leave no regrets (:
Even if you fail at it ... You know you tried your best.

So what's there to worry about anymore ? ^^

"Maybe we were not destined to be, Maybe things should just stay like that forever."

When I hear those words, I wondered if it ever happened. Was it also like that.

Cry - Rihanna ! ♥ I think the lyrics is really nice and fits the melody pretty well.
Sad song though, but it brings out the tears in you and the deep felt feelings ...