And that's how I met you.
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Back to the topic! Today I spent the early part of the day
with my lovely boy and
made a date with him for our 5th month on the 24th of the month. It occurred to us how far we've come together since the day we met, and the day we got together.
Some people don't know how we got together, only knowing that we came from the same tribe and we were both SLs. Well, I decided that
years down the road .. Whether or not we're still together, I would want to read back on
how a beautiful relationship of mine started, so here goes nothing.
It's ramblings at 2am anyway so just pardon me please (:
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On the very first GM, Leptis Magna had a tribe meeting at Block51 and we sat in a circle introducing ourselves. I couldn't remember much people, after all I haven't seen most of them in my 1 year in FMS then, yet. I remember Kanesh (Qifa YAY), SiEn (Joelle's friend), pretty Li Anne, Winona (ms popzxc), having 2 Zachary (I just don't know who is who), Guanny ('cause Kanesh's friend), Deena (FOC) and the cutest boy in the circle, Jian Hung ♥
No legit, I thought he was the cutest in the circle (tribe SLs), and remembered only his name for those unrelated to me hmmm.
Second GM, I thought he was still cute. He kept sitting with a bunch of girls (APR Girls) and that made me a lil' uncomfortable :(
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Through the GMs, we didn't really talk. One GM we had at Munch Level2, I stood at the back because I got tired of being cleaned when nobody at the back really practises as hard as we do. I laughed a lot at this Jian Hung guy who stood beside me and tried to help him as much as I could. It was awkward, really. But he was still cute to me, and I could see that he tried.
Guys who put in effort into anything is instantly more charming hehehehe ^^
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That GM, I decided he was really cute. ♥ We sat around the flag after GM waiting for the flag to dry. Trying to strike a conversation to make things less awkward, the only words that came out of my mouth were ...
"Eh what's wrong with your eyes ah?"
Turns out this cute guy has lazy eyes and ironically wanted to get into optometry (he denies it's to treat his eyes but I don't believe up till today) but got into APR because his math was/is horrible HAHAHAHAHA. Fate anyway.
I began laughing at his eyes over the next few GMs, and scolding him "Ah Beng" because he really reminded me of one after he dyed his hair.
Once, I claimed he looked like a Minnie Mouse and he kept denying. Zac Ong asked "What's important is ... Do you like Minnie Mouse?". I said "No", I lied ♥
Because he learned Japanese, I changed his phone language to Japanese and refused to allow him to change it back. It still amazes me how he didn't defy me HAHAHAHA.
Slowly, but surely, I fell in love with the little arguments we shared.
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A night I went out drinking, I had so much on my mind. Subconsciously, I finished half a bottle of JD in a bit more than an hour. I don't have much memory of that day, but a friend told me that I went on rambling about a guy I was really interested in. And I kept getting frustrated because I couldn't tell him but I liked him so much.
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Trial Camp, we had breakfast at Clementi Mcdonalds' as a tribe (only some came though). Funny thing is, we both arrived the earliest and I had my fair share of laughing at him being tired because he didn't sleep a wink the night before. #dumbshit #lilshit
I ended up spending a quality amount of time taking photos of his sleeping and denying I did after HAHAHAHA. I only told him the truth 2 weeks ago oops!
That day, I asked if he was staying for Day0 @ Elo's with us. He agreed. I was happy. I don't know why. I felt so.
Watching him from afar became a habit I grew over time.
He played the piano, and I couldn't say anything except "Beng, your game very strong." and "Why are you even single?". I wish he wasn't, I wish he was mine ♥♥♥
The morning we were having breakfast in Poolside, I turned on his phone to check the language and set a selfie of SiEn and I as his wallpaper. He got frustrated but laughed it off. Then, I saw a message from "Joey". I died a little inside.
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And just like that, we entered camp.
Because the Yoga room was cold on Day0 where we slept and Li Anne borrowed my jacket, I froze sleeping on the floor. I caught a flu on Day1. Oh God that horror :(
As we were preparing for the beginning of a new journey, I looked across the room where he just finished putting eye liner ('cause guys were forced to and we weren't, don't ask me I still don't know why). I walked over, and asked for a photo because "we've never taken one together before!"
Throughout camp, he laughed at me a lot. Because I had a flu, I would sneeze and he would put his finger on my nose. I didn't know why he did that, he didn't know why either. It didn't help anything, but it was something that belonged to us, ♥ And that, made me a lil' happier (:
When we were teaching the freshies the Mass Dance and I got so tired I sat down. He came along and sat with me, talking about little nothings.
I would go back to then, any day.
The moment before our SL Performance, I never felt as afraid to perform as I did back then. I ran into him and crashed in his arms because I genuinely didn't want to be on stage (I don't want to screw up). He told me that it was fine, and that helped a little. (Well so did Guanny's hug, actually that helped more heheheh Guanny I love you too!♥)
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Last camp night. The guys came into our room and we talked. He fell asleep. I stole glances like it was free (well it was) and I couldn't help but wish time never passed so we didn't have to part our ways into our little lives again.
Sadly, time is never on our side, and morning came. As the rush of packing up and bidding our farewells eventually came, tears fell subconsciously on so many of us.
I remember when camp ended and we all cried. But he didn't.
What struck me the most, was when he cried outside Munch. Not for camp, for our tribe ... But for a friend he held dearly and was worried for genuinely. Plus points? Not really, because he hit the maximum with that ♥
I decided to bring the remaining stuffs up the hill to keep, partially because leaving the school meant camp had ended. He offered to accompany me, and I was thankful for that. For him, and for the sake that he knew I didn't want camp to end (:
Like this, we walked up and down the hill 3-4 times. Until finally, we had to part our ways. I texted him "Thank You", and that was a whole new beginning ♥
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The next day, everyone had post-camp syndromes and the chat was spamming non-stop. Askfm was filled with questions, twitter/instagram was posts and followers, Whatsapp acted like a vibrator (except I muted most of them) and I had to charge my phone 4 times in a day.
For him and I, we talked from camp to crying to how I sounded like a dying whale when I cried. The topic of having a crush came up. I told him I liked someone a lot.
Out of the frustration of him asking, I jokingly told him it was him (though to me it wasn't a joke). Like that, I fell asleep (afternoon nap 'cause sweg). I woke up to a new message:
"Actually, I also like you a bit..............." (I shan't reveal the rest of the content because confidential)
And like that, just like that, I was sure that was the guy I wanted more than anything (:
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Because Junior has a beautiful voice and I was complimenting his singing to Jian Hung, I jokingly asked Jian Hung to sing for me. He refused up till 3AM when he finally agreed. Although I refused to pick a song, he sang one he thought was a classic. I fell asleep listening to it on repeat ♥
Through the days and the shy dates, I was more and more certain of how I felt for him. I wouldn't say the same for him, but I'm happy with the end result anyway.
The first date where we ate Carls' Junior and he fed me fries. When he finished the vegetables first because I refused to try his burger since it had vegetables in it HAHAHAHA. He brought a jacket although he wasn't the kind to get cold because he was afraid I would be cold (: I brought that jacket home that day, and it's still with me now.
That second date when we ate takoyaki in town and laughed over stupid things while talking and walking ♥ He sent me home and we took nice photos at the bus stop.
"Get Lost" @ Sentosa when he carried me into the sea because I refused to get as much as my knee wet. He piggy-backed me around and we stood at the bus stop waiting for the boys to return the ball. He sent me home that day, and I'll remember the little parting gift. I will never forget that ^^
FMS Induction day, when he bought an apple up for me because I was hungry.
The day I had a full day FMSD4F2014 Practice in school, and he came at 10pm to accompany me for just a bit before sending me to the bus stop ♥ We sat at 51 talking about how our days went. Until the lights went out, and we left.
The third date on the last day of our holidays before year2. He accompanied me around town to find shirts for my D4F Alices, trying on the guys shirt and giving me advice on the girls' outfits. After a long day, we sat at the top level of Ion Orchard talking.
As we talked about life being short, I lied on his shoulder wondering how life is scary because we never knew how soon the end was. He claimed about having to live without ever having a girlfriend and I joked about having him find one after he pass on.
"Arboh, 你当我的女朋友啊?"
Because he didn't know how to phrase it, and he had thought it through over and over for the past 2 weeks then, and couldn't bring up the topic until somehow we reached that point. I didn't give him an answer that day. I didn't want to ruin everything.
Not on impulse.
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FMSD4F2014, we won champions. ♥
He gave me a beautiful flower as a congratulations gift. He knew we were going to win champion. He had a gut feeling that was never wrong. In that corridor, where there was only 2 of us, he asked again. And this time, I said yes (:
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Our story is one that is pretty funny, a little boring, a whole load of weird, filled with awkwardness, pinched together by a chunk of fate, and some crazy amount of impulse ♥
But our story is one that is still ongoing now. It's been almost 5months since I started dating this guy, over 5months since I confessed to him and over 7months since the day I thought he was adorable ^^
Everyday, I'm amazed at how the cute guy back at camp would turn out to be my boyfriend today. I'm amazed at how we've grown together and how much we've learned from one another through the past 5 months. I won't deny that I've never loved another like I love him now ♥
I know, baby that you're reading this.
Probably only because I told you to, and you did because that would make me happy HAHAHAHAHA. But nevertheless, thank you.
Thank you for coming into my life the time you did, how you did it, unintentional or not. I know I say thank you a lot, more than I should, but like I always tell you .. That being grateful and overly grateful, is always better than taking things for granted (:
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Like the song I told you about, 亲爱的，我多么幸运；人海中能够遇见你.
There are so many people on this planet of ours, but being a small country I say the odds are 1 to over 5million only. As we narrow the odds down, NP has a total of 16,000 full-time students. Narrowing it down to FMS, with 4 courses. We have 180 in Mass Comm for our year, around 30 for APR/DVFX and maybe near to 100 for FSV. In total we have around more than 300 students in a year.
Excluding freshies or year3s who are about to graduate, over 600-700 people could sign up for FBC 2014. Out of the people who interviewed, approximately 100-200 people, we had 4 options (3 tribes + PLog Comm), which is a 25% chance. With this 25% chance, we got into the same tribe.
Our tribe has a total of near to 40 SLs (including head, co-heads and chief). There are about 15 males and 35 females. Around 10 of them are attached. Out of the remaining 30, the chances of 2 people being together in the total amount of combinations possible is around 534. In the 534 possible combinations, we fell in love ♥
Now, we may not be the 1 in 6billion people or the 1 in 5million people in Singapore. But even in a small tribe of ours with 30 people, we had 534 possible couples. And out of the so many possibilities I can't even imagine, we fell in love.
It's not finding that 1 person in 30 people or 6billion people because love is a statement that includes 2 people. And 2 people meant 2 different set of feelings. When the number is doubled, the possible combinations is even larger. And like that, I found you ♥ I fell in love, and you fell right back.
We fell in love without knowing each other felt the same way, whether it was just a little or a whole lot. But patience in nurturing the little feelings we shared, brought us to where we are today. I don't ask for much, but I do ask for you to be thankful.
To be thankful that we have been brought together in a most beautiful way possible that life could ever shape. And that we're still looking into each other's eyes a few hours ago the way we did on our first official date as a real couple on that Friday.
I love you. ♥
You deserve to know that.
Joanna
