Let's make a run tonight.

I know it's only been less than 2 days since I blogged and this is probably a rush of writing feels but I decided to do as much as I can while I still have the time to do so (: So this is probably a post that might not apply to many of you and it's pretty personal but I decided to do it anyway ^^

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A lot of my friends have been asking me regarding my current romantic relationship and my partner! ♥ Well, it's difficult for most of my friends to know him because he's not from Nanhua or anywhere related to the bulk of my friends! The people who know him are mainly Leptis Magna and FMS. But that's also because he's a real low profile guy (:

I respect his privacy a lot, but I also know that I have really lovely friends from Nanhua who don't know about him at all and have questions regarding many things! So I've decided to do a post about him from my point of view, without invading his privacy as much as I can.

Yay ♥
Ps. This will be in a question-answer format thing or it might get boring .______.

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Who is he?

LEL. You can find out his name from many places but he's called Jian Hung (: He's my age and a really handsome boy *inserts heart-shape-eye emoji*

How did the both of you meet?

Basically we're both SLs from FMSFBC2014 in Leptis Magna so ♥♥♥ Hahahaha my favorite yellow people yes! And I thought he was cute from Day01 of GMs so no doubts about how much I love him hehehehe.

What's with the #JOANNAHBENG thing?

He's Joanna and I'm Ahbeng. No just kidding HAHAHAHA. Well he gives off the Ah Beng vibes so he's our Ah Beng in Leptis Magna and that's how the whole "ship name" came along, ♥ Cr: Eloise. Hehehe. Oh we prefer to be called driftwood, we don't believe in ships ^^

Is he a dancer too?

Sadly, no ): (WHY NOT!) But then again, I've watched him dance for LM Performance and he's a talent + he puts in a lot of effort (: But he's not a dancer and I have no problems with that because I don't necessarily have to date a dancer!

Does he object to you dancing?

I won't talk to anyone who objects to me dancing, much less say date. Dancing is my life and everybody knows that, including Jh ♥ The greatest thing is having him support me dancing even if he's worried a lot (': #supportiveboyfriends #dancerlife

When did the both of you get together?

Technically, 24th April this year. (of course.) but I've liked him for awhile so YAY!

Do the both of you argue?

Yes, we do. About whether polo t-shirts look good on him, or whether there is a God or many. (I personally believe in God himself, and only him ♥) Apart from that, we're really much too lazy to argue HAHAHAHAHA.

We're just not the kind of people to get angry at one another (:

What's the story between the two of you?

Well, that's between the two of us and our Leptis Magna SLs ♥ All I can say is that I'm very thankful for the people who brought us together and supported us through then and now.

We've talked a lot about receiving the blessings of others and how we're pretty thankful for that. But I guess the best part of our story is the whole everyday process rather than special moments (:

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If anything else, I suppose this sums up the general idea of him, and us. I'm sorry I can't say much because I don't believe in sharing his or our personal life on my blog T.T

And yes, I love him a lot. A lot more than I expected and in a different way too (: He makes me feel like I would always want to try harder to become a better person. And that's one of the greatest gift God has given me alongside him.

Thank You.
Both God and Jian Hung ♥

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Forget about you - R5! The funny thing is how it went from a catchy song to how it meant a lot for me towards him and eventually him towards me as well (:

Heat in our celebrations.

Date / Time : Saturday, June 21, 2014 / 12:22 PM

Hello there!

I'm back with a new post and a new outlook! I decided to make the blog post more focused on content rather than editing and design. (Ok this is just an excuse for my laziness.)

The weather in Singapore has been a rather killer recently with such a strong heat spell and minimal rain ): It's been pretty torturous and I know I'm not the only one who have been suffering from rashes or other symptoms due to the heat! Yes, I have been getting rashes because I'm sensitive to UV Rays. #lifeofjoanna #badluckjoanna Why do I even live in Singapore T.T

Anyway, it's important to stay hydrated so always drink plenty of water! ^^ Try to wear a cap or shades if you are sensitive to the sun rays because they are lethal. And I mean it ._______. Stay in cool conditions and remember to bring some flu medicine (I don't mean panadol) if you have rashes because they are known to help reduce itchiness ♥

Take calamine lotion if you're suffering from rashes too because they are extremely helpful in cooling your skin (: However, you'd look weird with this awkward dry white patches on you, so if you don't mind the outlook it's really good!

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Yesterday, I went down for my first NDP Practice! ♥

Well, technically I was only supposed to go down yesterday to help out but I'm going back today for rehearsals anyway! ^^ Contrary to last year's performance, I'm actually doing helpers' work this year instead. It's crazy having to run around in the heat and passing on instructions in the least amount of time possible, but it's pretty satisfying ^^

Oh, I meant satisfying by the Ice Kachang treat from Laoshi yesterday after practice, ♥ Now, that was heaven sighhhhh. Love Laoshi for everything (':

This year, DI is having an item with PA (as usual) while the NH'00 kids will be doing an item alongside Wood Grove. Helping out the Nh Item yesterday was a killer because it's difficult trying to get the non-dancers to cooperate T.T But we managed to complete everything anyway ^^

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Being my second year at NDP, I honestly dislike NDP. Hahahahaha! #irony But I really don't enjoy the whole process of getting NDP to work because it's a huge job. Sometimes we wait for hours for nothing, and we probably aren't the ones who work the hardest yet!

But it's a necessary process anyway. NDP is the significance of Singapore's growth and so many people are "honored" to be part of the production while I'm here like "Get me home ♥". For people who are eager to join NDP, the only selling point is the food (: If you love KFC or Pizza Hut, this is the place to go. Apart from that, there isn't much of an appeal.

Sad, but true.

Oh, I hope the sun isn't that much of a killer today! Rehearsals from 2-10 doesn't sound very bright (figuratively, it's bright literally).

Don't ask me for tickets, I don't even think I would get them. Even if I do, I don't encourage you to watch anyway HAHAHAHAHA. The sun is horrible and the parade is boring, so why do we even bother sighhhh (:

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Alright, that's just a really short post on NDP and the Heat in Singapore recently. They are related with the fact that my rashes got worse after standing in the sun for a long time yesterday during practice T.T So remember to keep hydrated and well, you can watch NDP from home HAHAHA. Just skip the parade, seriously, it's boring.

NDP Theme Songs (2010 to 2013) ♥
Well I don't have the theme song for 2014 so here's the previous years one (:
Honestly I still can't get over 2013's HAHAHAHA. #toomuchmemories #laughingatit

Falling and Getting back up.

Date / Time : Sunday, June 15, 2014 / 12:46 AM

Hello there! It's been a really long while and like I always mention, I have many posts that are awaiting postage. But then again, that's too much trouble for both you and I. In fact, they are pretty outdated .______. So here's something different (:

Year2 of FMS/MCM hasn't been at all the easiest ride so far, considering half a semester is gone. It's definitely the most tiring semester I've had/will be having in my 3 years of Poly so I'm really sorry if I can't dedicate time to write. I love writing, I just can't find the time to sit down properly and do it T.T So I'll probably make these posts more issue-based than events-based ♥

But I'll still do updates so yeah! Oh, the main point of having this blog is really to express my thoughts and to let friends that I seldom keep in contact with, keep in touch with my life ^^ People who care a lot but don't really know how to put their questions into words (:

Anyway, back to my main topic. As you can probably guess from the title O.o I've lived 18 years and I wouldn't say I'm the most experienced person to talk about issue based things. But there's something I've been keeping off my blog for awhile and I decided that since it took up a major portion of my life for a whole of almost 6 years, I should talk about it!

In the span of nearly (not fully) 6 years, I've been involved in 7 past romantic relationships and currently in the 8th one, ♥ I've had many many controversial views about my relationship stand and I often avoid this topic on my blog because I don't believe in putting my other half(s) into the limelight. Although I'm not the most successful person in handling relationships, I've had my experiences (:

People often ask me "After you've been through a break-up, how do you bring yourself to go through the same again?". Well, each ending of a relationship hurts if you truly cared for that person. But sometimes it's not about feeling the fear of hurting again, but about trusting that this person will be different. Naive at times, but yet it gives you the opportunity to trust again.

Honestly, none of my past relationships were "not genuine" because I truly cared for them and I know they did too. It's not the kind of fling where you're in a relationship because it's the "cool" thing ._____. And I'm really glad to say that they've all taught me a lil' about life that I'll never learn elsewhere ♥

People often question me about how each relationship went and for me to tell my story. But you can't truly understand a story if you've only heard one side of it. In fact, I don't wish to share the personal details of each of them because these details generally shouldn't matter ^^

One thing I've definitely learned is that we shouldn't always jump into something we feel strongly about. Although I've had such a rich history, there was only 1 in which I jumped in without thinking thoroughly. Always get to know a person better (as a person, not friend/bgr) before you decide if you really like this person regarding his/her personality/habits/attitudes about life.

If you've already understood enough about the person, you can make the decision.

The scariest thing about getting into a relationship probably isn't the fact that you'll end up being hurt but the fear of losing the friendship that comes with it. More often than not, it's not just the friendship with your partner, but also friends you've made because of your partner. Sometimes, even your existing mutual friends too ):

I've almost lost friends due to failed relationships but honestly true friendships will hold strong even without the help of a romantic relationship. These are when you'll realise who the true friends are, and trust me .. Quality over quantity any day, ♥

Although I've been in 7 past relationships, I can safely say that none makes me feel the way I feel for the current boy I'm in love with now .. ♥ Genuinely, none. Not that I didn't love them back then, nothing just feels as crazy/magnified as now (:

It had never been me liking someone first and waiting for that person to like me back. Well, when that happens the guy usually doesn't like me back #rejected #sadlife96 The only relationships that took place was the other way round. But this time, it's different ^^

I fell in love with a boy not expecting anything. Legit O.O I fell in love with the way he acts, the way he laughs, the way he interacts with the people around him and the things he believes in ♥ And then, I convinced myself that reciprocated feelings were impossible. Until everything fell in place and we're where we are now.

I can't tell you how a successful relationship will be like because judging from my records, I can probably write the "to-do" manual by doing the opposite of what I did in the past #guilt

But I can tell you that I'm in a very very happy relationship right now! ♥ With a most wonderful boy who doesn't even know how amazing he is to begin with.

It's important to want to be with each other a lot. You can't be "ok" with not seeing one another, be "fine" with spending little time together, or "neutral" about not making time for your relationship. Well, at least not at the beginning. You're supposed to want to spend time together .. ♥ A lot. Making crazy efforts to spend even a bit of time together (:

Because there will be a time when you're so crazy over each other and a time when you're so used to having one another. But if you believe that it's a long-term relationship so you can "get used to one another" because you can be "crazy over each other" later on, you're wrong. There will be no more "crazy over each other" once the beginning is over.

Do we argue? Yes, we do. Over what to eat and whether I should be shopping or not ^^ We don't argue over major things because we're much too lazy to get into an argument. #onlyjoannahbeng LEL. But that's the good thing I guess ♥

I used to believe in the excuse of "A couple cannot last if they do not argue". and used this excuse all the time. But after my past relationship, I realised that it isn't supposed to be like so. Arguments do make relationships stronger but there is always the chance that it will tear you both apart ): Honestly, if you can avoid it .. Just avoid it.

Take a step back and be patient ♥ I can't say I'm the most patient girlfriend around but I'm learning. I'm really learning to be (:

It's ok to change. It's ok to slowly try to become a different person, if better. If you're using the excuse of "he/she is changing me and doesn't like me for who I am" to allow yourself to stop being a better person, you're only shortchanging yourself. There are changes that are good, and a relationship is supposed to make you want to become the best of yourself for your him/her.

I am a stubborn person and often I don't change my bad habits. Example? Eating vegetables. I really don't. That is something that I genuinely can't/won't do anything about T.T But for him, I'm eating more varieties of food ('cause I'm fussy as ****) and I'm correcting my hunchback ♥ If it makes you a better person, why not?

No, eating vegetables does not make me a better person. It really doesn't.

Don't be afraid to change. Don't feel guilty if your partner tells you someday that "you've changed" or "you're not the same person I once knew" if you're sure that the change is for the better. He/she probably just didn't realise that you are doing it to become a better person (:

After spouting a lot of nonsense, I've probably only come to the conclusion that I'm not really successful in relationships. I've learned a lot but I don't seem to be getting it right a lot ):

Most of it is due to my lack of self-esteem and heavy mood swings. I tend to get these horrible mood swings and I get so tired of myself a lot. Even people who try to make me feel better get tired over time and eventually give up T.T But it's not their fault because they tried (: And I'm thankful ♥

Either ways, I hope this post is worth your time reading ^^ I'll try to update more often! Oh, for people who haven't seen my favorite human, here's a photo HAHAHAHA. I know you've all been waiting for this from the top of the post, but I couldn't do that until now, ♥ So yay! I love you bby ^^

Have a great day!

All of the stars - Ed Sheeran ♥

Well in preparation for the release of TFIOS Movie on Thursday, this song is by one of my favorite singers of all times (: It's so sweet sighhhh (: