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    Driving cadillacs in our dreams.
    Date / Time : Sunday, October 27, 2013 / 3:59 PM
    Hellooooo people :D Back after .. One week? Hahahah I've been trying to get used to school and catching up on school work so it's been a pretty rough week for me ._________. But I enjoyed the week nonetheless, having started the week seeing R ♥


    I saw him the moment I alighted from my bus on Monday morning, so you can't blame me for being happy the entire week !! ^^ Oh, I can't reveal his full name lest he sees this but he's my eye-candy (Y) Too cute for my own good, ♥ (and I saw him everyday for this week!) Other than that, the week has been pretty tiring but worthwhile !

    I know I mentioned before how I'm rather uncomfortable with 110 and I'm sorry if any of you come to read this ): We caught a movie together on Friday (Carrie @ Cineleisure) before classes, and I felt much closer to them ! :D As I mentioned on my Instapost, "Everything begins somewhere" ♥ I hope this will be the beginning of better days for 110 and I know you're all nice in your own way (:


    Anyway it's been a pretty nice week, considering I've spent considerable time with the Kambings around campus ! ♥ We've had lunch together, studied together, lepak-ed together and what-have-you. Love them beyond words and I hope every Tuesday/Wednesday's like that as well pretty please ^^

    Now, Gracomm turned out much better on the 2nd lesson and I'm vowing to sit in the first row for a lifetime !! Oh and now 110 all knows I have this major teacher-crush thing on William Aung hmmm. Love the teachers from this sem solely 'cause they let me eat/drink in all their classes !! ♥ Definitely a plus for all of them, though 1.1 still has the best teachers :D


    //.

    That's pretty much about school in terms of FMS I suppose? Ohh and ScareFest is on Friday PLEASE SUPPORT FMS/STAGE PEOPLE !! ♥ All you people out there, Stage has put a great effort into this event so please go down to support them (: #teamfms #dontgotoict's #fmspride

    It's funny how I started out this school year dreading the politics/atas-feel of FMS and now I'm all #fmspride but you have to be part of this family to understand the love we share really !!


    //.

    Other than school-work, I've spent the rest of the time with my lovelies, ♥ Had dinner with the Zodall boys on Monday, then Mars dinner on Tuesday, Zodall boys on Wednesday, Zodall dinner on Thursday and Heimdall dinner on Friday !! ^^ I spent 4/5 days in this week with Zodall but I could never get enough (: Monday and Wednesday's dinner(s) were impromptu but I enjoyed them nonetheless !

    Tuesday was super super good 'cause Martians are always so lovely ! :D It wasn't like we had many people showing up for dinner but we had a relatively good time spent together !! And Zodall dinner on Thursday was definitely the ♥♥♥ Caught up with my darlings finally. Lastly .. Heimdall dinner was well spent, an amazing end to my 2nd week of school (:


    Let's hope that the 3rd week of school brings even better days in all ways ! Not gonna be an easy week but I'll try my best and I know God's blessing me with whatever I do, ♥


    Oh I had lunch with Nick today ^^ Really thankful for that lil' catch-up session we had and I promise I'll drop by PA more often for Dance alright ! Can't wait for lunch with @Kohxinru soon ♥

    Heheheheh and I met up with NHNP for that lil' time spent together on Friday before Heimdall dinner !! Super impromptu but I love y'all nonetheless (: #nhtoocool #nhpride

    //.

    Pretty chunky post eh? Sorry but my week had been pretty rough but eventful so I'm exhausted yet happy about it .. ♥ Hmmmmm.


    I could look at you all day, and I wouldn't want to look away. I could speak to you for hours, and I wouldn't feel sick of your voice. I could hang out with you everyday, and it'll always feel like we have endless things to do together. I could take pictures with you all the time, and I'll never run out of things to write on Instagram.

    Basically, I could spend as much time with you .. But I'll never want that time to stop. ♥

    Royals - Lorde (:
    Found her gaze rather freaky but the song's good. Posted a cover version of this song 2 posts ago but the original's not that bad also !

    Upside down, still.
    Date / Time : Sunday, October 20, 2013 / 12:14 AM

    Back after just 2 days :P But I'm here to blog about something else, rather than the usual updates and all (: Either ways it's been a good 2 days so I'll update again another time alright ^^

    I suppose the title suggests what this post will be about already; I'll be writing about the people I've spent almost the entire past 4 years with, ♥ My Dancers (:


    Now, I've talked about them countless times in front of everyone .. And in fact in my posts as well. But I could never emphasize enough, how they mean the world to me. From 2009 up till 2013, all the ups and downs we've went through are tears-worthy, smile-worthy and blood-worthy.


    Back in '09, we entered dance ♥♥ The first few bonding games were horrible, we didn't even talk to the boys at all !! All I remembered was I kept shouting "Jasper" for Whacko and one of the seniors asked if I liked him since I kept repeating his name #laughdieme The girls, whether out of free will or not, tried our best to bond with them ^^ Back then, it was only Xuejing, Huiping and I.

    We took the effort to go home with the boys, spend time with them and asked them to bond more with us !! (: Our efforts paid off somewhere nearing the end of '09 when our batch finally got a lil' closer.



    '10 brought a lot of unhappiness .. The major one being when the 3 of us had a fight with the other girls over being "over-possessive" of the boys ._______. Apparently it wasn't easy for them to bond with the boys 'cause the boys were already comfortable with spending time with us ): So we took a step back at that time and allowed the batch to properly bond !! ♥

    YOG definitely made us closer .. Especially my beloved Bus 04 ! :D Xuejing, Sihwee, Chan, Bingming, Bryan and I ♥ We were the closest we could ever get and I'd still miss those retarded memories of ours. By the end of '10, we were a batch filled with uncertainties but also a tinge of family with one another. That uncertainty brought us to 2011.

    //.


    Now, 2011. That was a milestone year (': Through leading Dance, we became a stronger family !! ♥ Our ups and downs, our tears and sweat, they were worth it all. And I wouldn't elaborate about that year, it was one indescribable. Nothing could replace the memories we forged in '11, and nothing could ever take them away from any of us.


    2012 was a rather upsetting year, because we grew apart. Our line was drawn, and the youthful memories we shared back weren't strong enough to hold us close together. Things started to change and we began having conflicts between genders .. ): The girls began having Sisters' Outings, the Boys having Brothers' Meet-up(s). Even up till the 1st day of Batch Chalet, our line was clear.

    Just when everything began to seem bleak, we each took a step back, ♥ The boys spent more time with us, and we started doing things they were interested in as well ^^ We wouldn't force them to watch boring Chick Flicks with us, and they would accompany us to Pool or BBQ(s) !! This was when everything took a turn for the better .. ♥♥♥

    //.


    In 2013, we're no longer physically reachable. We've gone our separate ways, and that's something none of us can do anything about ): But we've come to a time where we'll take that time off our schedules to spend just some hours with one another :D Monthly batch dinners .. It was something I didn't trust would last but did anyway ♥ And even up till today, we're already planning for our Batch Chalet this year !! ^^

    Definitely we've found our balance .. We have a 姐妹 Whatsapp where we talk about our Girly stuffs and the boys would plan their own Gaming outings. The girls have our own Stayover(s) @ Chan's where we watch movies the entire night, and the boys are (at the moment) sleeping over @ Boey's where they game their night away :P

    All of us found that balance where we would accept whatever each other were doing, but also understand when it's essential to spend time together as a batch, ♥


    Many people say that we're a very very very bonded batch, considering how we're still close after so long, and that our numbers never decreased ♥ We were/are a family, and we treat each other as would a family .. Well that's probably how we stayed close (:

    If I had to find a way to picture us, I'd picture us on the day Leila left for Finland. Not everyone was there, but in that moment .. It was love. One girl hugged Leila, and the rest of the girls hugged on. What surprised us was that the boys hugged on outside of us, serving as a protection boundary (': Our boys were never people who spoke of their love for us, but we never failed to feel it ! ♥


    I once read on my senior's shirts that "Dance is a bond, Unbreakable"; Because we're people who've come together because of that same passion and love for Dance !! ♥ But this passion have brought us further than we expected, it gave us a family we'll always be thankful for (: And on a night like this, I thank God for blessing me with my 28 sisters/brothers.

    Here's to the next 63 years of being '96 ♥

    The Lyrics Video for Charice's Louder ♥
    Always let our hearts speak louder than our heads.


    Mixed up.
    Date / Time : Thursday, October 17, 2013 / 9:56 PM
    Hellooooo ^^ Back after a few days 'though it's been quite hectic for the past 3 days !! :P School has officially started once again, after a good 7 weeks break !! ♥ It's quite a hell of a 2 days already, considering I'm tired beyond words ._________.


    Tuesday marked the end of holidays, and it was an amazing day spent with my Zombies, ♥ We had 18 Chefs + watched Insidious Chapter 2 and shopped late at night @ Bugis Street (: It was hilarious sitting with Isaac Khoo + Elson for the movie just 'cause #laughdieme Love them both to the moon and back HAHAHAHAHA, my 2 closest bro(s) in Zodall ! ^^

     Rather thankful for Darren + Isaac Ng who shopped alongside Ziyi & I without much of a grumble :D Zodall guys are really one of a kind .. ♥ The best kind !! And KFC was good food, of course as usual ~

    //.

    Yesterday .. School started. Seriously. They couldn't just give us a few more days off since almost half the week was gone already T.T Although I'm thankful I didn't have morning lessons yesterday, the thought of going to school was horrible enough ): Managed to drag myself out of bed with only 2 hours of sleep (still in holiday mood) and met the Kambings in School for an early brunch ! ♥♥


    Miss them so bad over the holidays and it's nice to know nothing's changed since ^^ Gofar still gets scolded by Nick & I, Joel's still gay, Rong still smells sweet, Elicia still runs in heels and Joelle still gives the warmest hugs .. ♥♥♥ It was rather upsetting that Arabelle wasn't around and I missed her so terribly.

    Went for Gracomm @ 3pm with Joelle sitting in my class (for fun) and I slept through HAHAHAHAHA !! Somehow this managed to spread and now everyone knows .______. Didn't actually talk to anybody in 110 yesterday.


    Oh well ! But I met Zodall @ OurSpace and we had Mass Dinner ♥

    18 in strength for Zodall, going strong and quantity with quality !! :D Everyone's always talking about how quality > quantity but we have both (Y) Took a gazillion photos yesterday and I wouldn't post all 'cause that'd take forever ): But still, I had an amazing time ! ♥

    Took photos with the Faggits but didn't manage to take with the Martians 'cause I left early ):


    Either ways, all of them marked an amazing start of semester 2 (':


    //.

    Today was .. HORRIBLE. Hahahahah well I met Ziyi on the bus so it wasn't a bad start, ♥ But 61 was crowded as hell and that sucked. Speech Comm didn't turn out too boring but we have assignments already goshhhhhh. O.O

    Skipped the time spent with 110 and went over to BTP for lunch with Nic + Daryl !! ♥ Love the 2 of them so much hahahahah, finally saw Daryl after forever also :D It's always hilarious spending time with them both (: Then I rushed back for Radio. Argh.

    But radio didn't turn out too bad I suppose .. Pretty much liking the teacher 'cause she shares our thoughts about how NP should just declare this week a holiday ^^ She was complaining about having a hangover yesterday and all, #swag And we have Radio Assignment as well OMG.

    Oh and I had dinner with Joelle + Rong ♥ Laughed like hell over the most ridiculous of stuffs and it's so nice to have these impromptu dinners ^^ Waited for Darren and went home together (Y)

    //.

    (^) Pretty much sums up my days but I wouldn't be updating without a reason !! I have Marcomm tomorrow and I'm really not looking forward to it. Honest. I should be doing my assignments but I can't really be bothered HAHAHAHAHAHA :P #yolo


    Anyway the beginning of sem 02 is really like the beginning of sem 01 again. New classmates, new classes, new modules, new teachers and all ._______. Having mixed feelings about it because I'm not exactly comfortable with everyone yet. T102 clicked pretty well from the beginning, though our 1/2 class line was pretty obvious .. (:

    It wasn't long before we formed our cliques and bonded well as a class, ♥ There was no politics, no rubbish. If we disliked a person, we voiced out ! We weren't exactly the closest class but it was comfortable with each and everyone of them ^^ Probably it's only into day 02 and 'cause I'm comparing 110 with 102 .. I just can't find that comfortable feeling.


    Probably in the days to come, things will get better .. ♥ But that's for later days I suppose. Still, I'm really thankful to the Kambings for staying by my side through it all (': It's as if my motivation each day to pass through time in class is to see you all during breaks !! I can't imagine how much I miss you people .. Sitting in the classroom sprouting nonsense ^^

    //.

    And I honestly miss Joelle so bad. I have lost that someone I clicked well with since Day 01. Nobody will be there to tell my how red my face turns when I see R, nobody to walk around mkp/ourspace with me to look for familiar/cute faces, nobody to accompany me when lessons end and nobody to bitch about stuffs with ♥♥♥ All these may seem like simple stuffs, but it's so significant and empty now that Joelle isn't by my side. Wish she was in my class again.


    And also well, when she's around, R will say Hi to us ^^ Now we only awkwardly smile at one another when we walk past each other T.T Saw him yesterday + today though, #happygirl96

    //.

    Sem 02's gonna bring so many changes. Am I really prepared for it?

    //.

    It's like an addiction to your favorite sweet.
    Once you get it once, you'll keep going back for it.
    And the moment the sweetness dries up, you'll miss that feeling instantly ♥
    I miss you already (:

    Royals ! Been hearing about this song around and finally brought myself to listen to it properly ~ The cover's quite good I suppose? Don't really like the original though.


    A beautiful risk.
    Date / Time : Monday, October 14, 2013 / 10:57 PM
    Hi guys !! It's been such a boring weekend ^^ But I'll still take the time to update anyway 'cause I'm rather bored today :P Firstly, welcome my new hair color !! ♥ Not everyone have seen it yet but it's actually purple-ish and near to black O.O


    Didn't actually expect myself to go for such a dark color but since I was threading along the lines of blue or purple .. Mommy decided for me that I should give dark purple a go ! ^^ However, I have dance pretty frequently and a color that stands out too much would cause a lot of inconvenience so they gave me a tone nearer to black, ♥ The color washes out after awhile and the purple will slowly show :D

    (^) cheem but you'd see the effect soon enough (: It's been pretty cool 'cause I've never had such a dark color in my life before !! I'm a natural "light-brown" haired, especially under the sun. I've never gone along the lines of black so this is really something new for me ^^ But I'm loving it !! ♥♥♥

    //.

    Ok enough about my hair. I had a relaxing Friday just using my computer at home so I shan't elaborate. No I didn't watch porn LOL.


    Slept only at 4AM in the morning but managed to drag myself out of bed and headed to CCK where some of us 姐妹(s) surprised GinLow @ her house for a belated birthday surprise .. ♥ She was super surprised but thankful that she wasn't sleeping when we arrived HAHAHAHAHAHA. #wasted Had a mini catch-up session with them and felt so blessed (:

    Then I went home to rest a bit before I headed out to Clarice's House for a swim with Clique ! ♥ Felt so good and we did so much retarded things in the pool :P Didn't even swim much but felt good nonetheless ^^ Then we headed over to Vivo where we had Pastamania for dinner !! Stayed till late night and headed home eventually ):


    //.

    My Sunday was boring so I shan't elaborate either heheheheh ^^ Most Poly-kids start school today but NP's pretty lucky 'cause it's NP50 today !! ♥ #thankgod #blessthelord But we're all so thankful because we get an extra 2 days holidays due to Hari Raya falling on the 15th as well ! :D Since we start school on Wednesday, Jaslyn Priscilla and I planned a shopping outing today ♥


    Pris was late so Jas and I shopped the afternoon away first, having our lunch and all. Then we met Pris @ FEP before we headed over to Somerset for dinner + more shopping !! It was a pretty productive day considering we spent a hell loads of money and had Seoul Garden for dinner !! ♥ The food was so good I would have eaten twice if it weren't for the expensive price sighhhhh T.T

    But we spent quality time together and that's what matters the most ♥♥


    //.

    Zodall's catching Insidious 2 + Having 18 Chefs tomorrow and I can't help but feel extremely excited about it ! ♥ There probably won't be much people going .. ): But I'm still happy to be able to spend time with da Zombies !! :D

    Nothing much to talk about today actually .____________.
    Quick update only, so sleep early people ^^

    //.

    Each love song reminds me of you .. Sad or happy.
    I know you're making me fall deeper with each time our eyes meet, but ..
    Just like grasping a thorned rose tight, the pain disappears with the beauty.
    Falling in love with a devil .. It's a beautiful risk.

    苦茶 (Part of the Brown Sugar Macchiato OST)
    I've had people asking me if it's a worthy show to watch, and I'd say yes ^^ It's really good and the love stories are pretty much summed up in this song (v) so give it a try !!

    3D2N with Heimdall ♥
    Date / Time : Thursday, October 10, 2013 / 9:14 PM
    Hi guys !! Just woke up and had dinner actually ~ Came back from Chalet today feeling horribly exhausted so I slept first, ♥ But I'm awake now and shall update about my past 3d2n @ Heimdall Chalet ! ♥♥


    I wanted to post about the things that happened but I believe that the memories we shared belongs to Heimdall .. ♥ I'm not going to go into details about everything but I know we'll all keep this memory etched within us (: Thankful for Heimdall/Zodall for the past 3 days of love, crazy, wild, fun times and tiring times !!

    Especially Zodall, of course !! ♥ Thank you for sticking together for the entire chalet, almost never leaving one another's side. Thank you for showing that we're so united as one, regardless of what we do ^^ I love how we did everything together .. Zodall chats, lepak, supper, food, drinking and all !! We're always by each other and I'm beyond happy to have that. You people have shown me that it doesn't matter what we're doing, so long as we're doing it together :D


    Celebrated Devin's birthday on the 2nd night ! ♥ He was extremely happy about the surprise I suppose, though I failed to stay through the whole "striping" part .________. But well, Heimdall has always been like that, isn't it?

    It's been 3 days of wild times spent with Zodall and I'm suffering from Post-Heimdall Depression ): Really can't wait for school to start to see them everyday, spend time together after school all the time and lepak in OurSpace for as long as we can HAHAHAHAHAHAH !! Ohh we practically lepak-ed the entire chalet away, ♥ #swag #yoloswag


    Really upset that Megan didn't make it for the chalet but thankful for Ziyi + Rixin for spending so much quality time with us throughout the chalet .. ♥ Sitting at the front porch, listening to music as we chat and just enjoying the company of one another (: Love the warmth of Zodall, of Heimdall. Can't wait for the next Zodall outing or dinner (Y)

    //.


    Sorry I didn't wanna do updates 'cause it's quite boring ._________. But whatever I wanted to express to Zodall, I know they felt it ♥ My favorite family .. And it felt as if we've drifted over the holidays. But when we come together again, it's like nothing's changed. Zodall's still Zodall, and Kahar still can't spell Melayu properly #laughdieme

    //.

    It's an amazing feeling .. What I feel around you. It's the feeling of having forgotten the lyrics to your favorite song if you stopped listening to it for awhile. But you've never truly forgotten .. And when the song is played once again in your head, you'd sing out the lyrics you never knew was still within you ♥♥ Because your favorite song is still as important to you as it once was, despite distance despite anything (:


    Thankful for you. ♥
    Horrible, Wild, Heart-warming, Painful, Playful, Wilful, Smiles, Screams.
    It's like falling in love with a devil (:

    Best Song Ever - One Direction ♥
    I remember listening to it somewhere yesterday night .. And they are awfully cute aren't they? (:


    A Second Letter, More Love.
    Date / Time : Saturday, October 5, 2013 / 10:08 PM
    I've done this before .. But I had the urge to do this suddenly, so here goes nothing !! (:

    "A Letter to the 13-Year-Old Me"

    Dear Joanna,


    It's 2013 now and you probably can't believe that you'll actually live past 2010. Today's your 13th birthday so I'll wish you Happy Birthday first (: You would have received the card from the 106 girls by now .. And feel touched by this friendship ♥ 2009 is a year where you'll learn a lot about Secondary School life, backstabbing and true friendships. I wouldn't tell you everything, but I'll advise you to look closely at who the true friends are. There are those who will stick by your side through thick and thin, and some who will turn their back against you.

    The friends you make in 106? Some will stay through and some wouldn't. I won't spoil the fun, but be careful about who you trust with your secrets, your deeper self.

    One true advice I would give you, which you eventually followed .. Would be to do things without thinking too much (: You'll understand why somewhere nearing the end of 2009 .. ♥ When you do things without having too heavy a motive, you gain the most beautiful relationships with people. There, you would have had your first true love.

    It'd definitely spoil the fun if I tell you how it turns out, but it'll be a memory you'll grow up to smile when reminded (: Sadly, I can't continue the letter if I don't tell you that it ended. And that's when you changed completely. From the 17th me, I would tell you to tell others about your problems rather than keeping them in ♥ Your friends will be there for you, and those friends are people you'll grow even closer to as the years go by !! It may seem impossible for you at the moment .. But your "keeping-it-all-in" eventually resulted in several self-harmed scars.


    As we walk into the mid of 2010, you'll form a friendship with a special boy that everyone would tease you about. And you might wonder if it'll blossom into something more, but it will turn out otherwise :P Look around that friend, and that's where you'll find a love you loved so great, a friendship that you treasure up till 2013 ! ♥ Remember, look at things without thinking too much.

    Nearing the end of 2010, your friendship(s) with Huiping will be put to the test. And for you now, she's such an innocent sweet sister .. But things change and so do the both of you. However .. I wouldn't worry too much if I were you, because both of you are true friends ♥ Despite agreeing to take the same course as your best friend .. You'll eventually follow the path of your sister. It will make you unsure for awhile, but don't worry; God has a way with life (:


    2011 is a year I've already talked about in the previous letter. And I would really tell you to go for the things you truly want !! ♥ I know you'll be confused right now, but keep this mentality in mind. It probably wouldn't help much, but the 17-year-old Joanna is now filled with regrets of what could-have-been back then. 2011 is another turmoil year, but you'll grow up the most in that 365 days ^^

    And you'll end up being part of the Dance Ex-co !! O.O You're probably scolding vulgars at this letter now, thinking it's beyond impossible. But yes, you'll have an amazing role and a blast contributing to Nhds ♥♥ Oh didn't I mention? You'll eventually be brainwashed by those crazy sisters of yours and become a good-ass kid yourself :D

    By 2011 .. You would have lost your primary school friends. I'm sorry but your heavy participation in Dance led to this. I would have to tell you this truth, lest you hold on to something which will eventually bring you to nothing. And I'm sorry ):


    Now .. 2012. Hahahahahahah it'll be a year filled with almost ZERO memories. Because you'll be mugging your ass off the entire year #laughdieme Life has become stable by then for you, ♥ You'll have one of your best years in 2012 and eventually miss that year so bad .. Sigh. But it's all filled with such excitement and I shouldn't spoil the fun as much as I want to !!

    Your prom in 2012? Hahahah I know it's something you're already looking forward to in 2009 ~ But it won't be that much fun as you expected it to be anyway (: You'd have been a near-to-0%-emotional person by then and nothing really makes you upset. But you'll still cry on the Graduation Ceremony in NH .. When a video of that certain person appears on-screen. ♥♥ I can't tell you who yet, but I can advise you to treasure each moment spent with every friend before they are gone.

    In AHA 2012 (Yes, you'll become an active member of DI), you would have choreographed your very first dance alongside Xuejing !! ^^ I know, it's amazing (: Although you both claim to be ashamed of it, you're really very proud of it and of your dancers ♥ And though you scold them a lot, being the black-faced in every practice .. You really love them !! The dance will turn out amazing and you'll feel so proud.

    -


    2013 would be a year filled with changes. Yes, the 17-year-old Joanna is currently living through it ! ♥ You'll be a lil' upset when you see that you got posted to Mass Comm in NP (as I have mentioned in the previous letter) because you so badly wanted your first 2 choices ): But God put you there for a reason .. And I'm still believing in that, ♥ So do things with a light mind, and everything will turn out fine ^^

    In 2013, you'll find your feelings taking a turn. Your mindset on relationships will change and well, so would your taste in guys :P I'd spoil the fun if I told you, but even the 17th Joanna is confused right now. So you'll probably have to wait for the next letter to find out what happens next ! ^^

    I haven't lived through the entire 2013, so I can't tell you what happens thereafter; But I've summarized your secondary school years and there are so many details in-between that I couldn't fit in ): Those includes your fight with Huiping, the torn of your friendship with some of your closest friends, the growth of your friendship with Yuqi, and all your relationship complications !!

    It's scary actually .. As I tell you what happens for the next few years. And I know, you're filled with uncertainty now. The 13th Joanna is someone who is heavily emotional, trusts easily and thinks way too much .. Too much for her own good. And the 17th Joanna, you ask? Well I would tell you that you'll grow up in some unhappiness and some joy, leading to the near-to-0%-emotional person I am today ♥♥ You would detest such a person now, but you'll understand why you became such a person as I do in 2013 !! :D

    Now, I'd wait for a letter from the older Joanna .. Hopefully it'll be filled with surprises ! ♥ I know I didn't reveal much so as to not spoil the fun, but I've realized that growing up is a process you need to "not know what's happening next" in order to give your best !! :D God has it all planned out for you, so just go for it with an open mind (: Oh, your love for God and your trust in him will grow as the years pass you by ^^ He will show you that he's there when you need him and that you can leave everything in his hands. Now don't worry, it'll all turn out fine.

    You're the 13-year-old Joanna .. And you're facing your secondary school life with so much anticipation as I remember I did back then. You'll do alright, really you will.

    With love,
    The 17-year-old Joanna ♥

    3D2N with NHPoly, OIP Boys are Home (:
    Date / Time : Friday, October 4, 2013 / 5:01 PM
    Hello keedz ! ^^ Back after a few days, 'cause I've been at Chalet for the past 3 days !! Wasn't planning to stay through at first but decided to anyway ~ Turned out to be real fun and had loads of laughter + crazy moments spent together with the NH Poly Kids ♥


    Day 01, met WongYJ @ Orchard to get his pay (he promised me a drink WHICH I HAVE YET TO RECEIVE) and the rest @ Aljunied before we headed over to Pasir Ris (: Had lunch and rushed over to check-in @ Coasta Sands DTE !! ♥ It was where we previously held our NHNP Chalet so we decided to stick to it. The crowd was non-existent as school is still in session.

    Most of them went out to buy stuffs for the chalet while a few of us stayed in to lepak, ♥ Talked a lot and laughed like mad HAHAHAH. Then we rented our bikes for Night Cycling before having Mcdonalds' for dinner :D Lepak-ed the rest of the night away watching TV + playing games until Guanlin + Tianyi came and we headed for our Night Cycling !! ^^


    It was quite crazy 'cause we planned to cycle to Changi Airport for supper but ended up on the ECP (I still don't understand why) and panicked. #laughdieme But we managed to reach T3 before we decided to split into Maxi Cabs back to the chalet 'cause it was beyond #yolo to cycle back ._______. Thankful for the nice people who helped us ! ♥♥ And we reached safely (:

    Bathed and most of us watched Insidious before sleeping.

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    Day 02 was rather boring 'cause we were much too tired from the night before ): Had breakfast with Bel, Yings, Jason and Rongjian !! ♥ Then we watched "The Room-mate" and "The Lucky One" before we headed out for lunch + pool :D Bought the liquor back and the rest of the evening was spent playing cards + laughing over retarded stuffs (Y)


    Had Just Acia for dinner while we talked about the past few years in NH and had a nice catch-up + throwback session ♥♥♥ That's honestly the best thing about spending time with people you're so comfortable with ~

    Some of us went back to rest while some went out to fetch Boey, Dlee + Yanxiaojie from MRT and had our drinking session ! ♥ Shan't elaborate much 'cause this is a form of social media and I suppose we all had our own fun in our own ways (: Watched "The Purge" + "REC" 1, 2 while I got some sleep in-between here and there ~ #tiredashell


    Woke up late and packed up before we headed to White Sands for brunch. Then we hogged the MRT seats, all 14 of them (though we had 15 people) and slept throughout ♥

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    They headed over to West Bowl for Pool + LAN but I met Clarice + Ping @ Tiong for lunch !! ^^ Missed them so badly and we had Eighteen Chefs (Y) Walked over to Clarice's house and had a catch-up session talking about the most ridiculous of stuffs, ♥♥ Adeline came for awhile before I rushed home to change.


    Met Ziyi + Darren before we went to Vivo for dinner !! ♥ Then we met Rixin + Joel and headed over to Changi Airport to fetch our dear Elson !!!!!!!!! :D

    His flight was delayed so we lepak-ed around and eventually missed our last train ._______. But the expression on Elson's face when he saw us was so priceless it was all worthwhile (: Missed my bff so bad and now he's finally home (Y)


    Took a cab home with Ziyi + Darren where we had supper + drinks + HTHT session ♥ Talked till 2am before we went home. Thankful for Ziyi who sent me till my house !!

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    Slept all the way till 1:30PM today 'cause I was dying from exhaustion.

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    NH Poly Chalet was really much better than I expected (: It's that comfort of spending time with people you've spent the past few years with .. And you share the same memories, the same times. You don't have to say more than a few words before the rest know what you're talking about. We've been through the same laughters, the same pains .. And those memories are something nobody else can take away from us .. ♥♥ Love y'all beyond words ^^


    And I can't believe the OIP Boys are finally back !! :D Didn't properly welcome Isaac Ng back 'cause I was at chalet .. ): But managed to fetch Elson from the Airport and it felt so good being able to hug him and talk to him in-person again. I've missed them both so much and I didn't even get to see Isaac Ng yet .. Sighhhhhh. You better come for the next Zodall outing, stupid boy !! ♥

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    Can't wait for Heimdall Chalet next week, Shopping Date(s) with my 姐妹(s), Mars Outing, Zodall Outing, and hopefully Fagponac Outing before school starts !! ^^

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    That comfort. What do I miss?
    Caught myself stealing glances at you .. Why did I do that?
    Because it's you. My answer has always been you. How did I only realize that now?

    说说 - 棒棒堂 !! ♥
    Composed by 王子 solely and entirely (: Love the lyrics love the song love the singers.