Hey people (: I shouldn't be blogging at this timing but I had the feel so HERE I AM ^^ Technically I'm supposed to be getting ready for 112 and meet my keedz, the Kambings, in school @ 6pm !! But it's still rather early, being 3:45pm and all ~


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Well .. Looking back on 2013, it's not a very dramatic year (: People who have been around me this year might say that it's been relatively dramatic but it's not really ♥ I would say that my most dramatic years were the 4 I had in Secondary School, in Nan Hua. I had definitely happy times, but unhappy and upsetting times did contribute to part of the 4 years as well ):

When I see my friends being "flamed" or criticized by others on social media or any other way .. I feel very deeply for them. Maybe it's because I love my friends a lot, ♥ But also probably 'cause I've been in their shoes in one way or another. I wouldn't say I was the "outcast" back then, but I definitely wasn't the "popular girl" who had many friends and nobody hated either.

It actually brings me back to somewhere in Sec3 and Sec4. I was someone who didn't have Twitter back then, I only used Facebook ._______. And I was the "using Facebook as a Twitter" kind of girl :P I never had any bad feelings towards Twitter and all until I knew about all the "flaming" and criticism on that platform. There were people criticizing one another openly, but indirect. Nobody tweeted by mentioning, but you could clearly see who they were tweeting about.

I'm not talking about anybody in particular but if the shoe fits, then oh well (:

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Some people ask me why do I use Twitter if I've had such a bad memory/impression of it back in Sec3 .. And well .. ^^ I would say that it's a way of getting back at them !! ♥ I was able to see what they say and they wouldn't be saying it behind my back, but in my face :D It takes courage (and a whole lot of being thick-skinned) to be able to face the criticism, but it's definitely worth the while 'cause you know who are the true ones at the end of the day ~

I wouldn't talk about the past though, 'cause we should leave it back there.

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Just did a wordy throwback to the past (^); Something I've never actually talked about 'cause it was always much too complicated. But now that I look at it .. I'm not afraid anymore. And to those who like to "flame" others when the situation doesn't even involve you .. YOU SUCK AND YOU SHOULD FEEL BAD.

Bye Keedz ! ♥

Elmo's "Back to the Future" ♥
You probably wouldn't understand the performance if you don't watch the show often.
But his performance was always enjoying .. And I especially like this one a lot (:

Hey guys ! (: Back for a rather short post today 'cause I'm actually taking time off from my show to blog, ♥ Basically it's been a pretty relaxing few days and holidays couldn't have been better ^^


Spent my Friday with Tianyi + Jasper @ NHDS then we met Bryan for dinner !! ♥ It was super hilarious 'cause we talked about damn stupid stuffs ~ And managed to catch-up with them, which felt completely amazing (: I love my brothers ! For Saturday I literally rotted my time away at home, but IT WAS STILL GREAT ♥♥ Days like those, I feel super relaxed ^^

Sunday I went out with my sister for Kbox before meeting Mommy for a movie ! :D We watched The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones ♥ It was a rather good show I guess !! I liked the plot and I'm quite interested in the books now actually :P My sister & mom read them all and I'm like .________. But I'll try to find time to read them alright !


I don't want to talk much about my days 'cause it's been pretty boring actually ~ Although I do enjoy spending my holidays this way ! ♥♥

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Today I had Zodall Breakfast-turned-Lunch and played Pool ♥ Quite random and not much time spent together, but it's something I really needed (: It's been quite long since we had a Zodall outing/meet-up and today did me a whole lot of good .. ♥ Thankful for those who turned up today !!


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On another note, Isaac Ng's flying off tomorrow and Elson on Wednesday ): Honestly not looking forward to it. 5 weeks is like 1 month + a bit more and it's kinda weird spending time with Zodall if they ain't around ~ Hope they have a good time nonetheless and enjoy your OIP, boys !! ♥ Zodall love all the way to China ! ^^

Ps. Isaac Ng you have a horrible new hairstyle HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

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My time after today will be rather packed up till Mid-September already ): There probably isn't a day where I have nothing on up till .. 15th September when I come back from Korea. But I still have some free time in between, just no complete free day !! T.T

Oh yeah, I'll be in Korea from 9th September up till 15 September but I'll still be on Whatsapp or whatever if I have Wifi ! Going on a holiday trip with my parents and it will be my first time sitting a plane !! ♥ I'm so looking forward to it ^^ I'll definitely blog about the WHOLE trip :P But it's still awhile till then so yeah ~

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I'll be doing a performance on 28th September as well (: Hahahah quite random but Laoshi asked a few of us last week and since it's the holidays .. Why not? ^^ I miss Dancing a whole lot anyway ♥


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Ok. Quite a quick and boring update but the main purpose of the post is to talk about my day with Zodall + Wish my two v annoying but lovely Zodall Zombies a good + safe trip ♥♥

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希望时间过得快一点；这样子，我见到你的那一天，也会来得快一些。
距离，少一点；快乐，就会多一点 ♥


幸福就好 - 棒棒堂 ♥
Disclaimer: It's the concert version and the back part is part of the concert after the song (:
Basically it's a rather sweet song. I really wish they didn't separate but they did ):

Hi everyone (: I'm typing on my sist's bed now 'cause I'm lazy to sit in my chair hahahahah ! Anyway my holidays is here !! ♥ Yes that's right (: My exams started and ended on Tuesday ^^ MEDSOC was really stressing us out and we're all real happy that it's over :D


Went for Pool + Pizza Hut with ma keedz on Tuesday, of course ♥♥ It was Joelle's virgin experience at Pool and it's pretty funny :P But overall I had fun and met the Zodall boys as well !! ^^ Zodall love alrights ! (: Although we went home quite early and feeling horribly tired .. I went home to catch up on my variety shows and dramas and what-have-you heheheheheh.



For Wednesday I literally rotted my day away watching variety shows and performances etc on Youtube, ♥ I SPEND MY HOLIDAYS THIS WAY YES. Although I did go Town for a movie with ma keedz in the evening :D We watched Elysium 'cause Smurfs2 didn't have an ideal time slot and I felt rather upset ): But Elysium had a fair load of action although the plot ain't that interesting ~ Still quite worth the watch for guys I believe .________.

And for today I went to Town (again~) for Job-Hunting with Joelle ! ♥♥ It's quite funny 'cause we were quite pussy/no-balls at first .. We didn't dare to approach anybody to ask them ): (Actually we agreed to keep this a secret but I couldn't resist, Sorry gorl!) Joelle definitely has more balls than me in this area I swear !! She asked like 3/4 of the stores we went to, and I asked only when I was forced to by her T.T

Ok but we got a few stores listed down for interview + filled up some forms and all that so hope for the best for us alright .. ♥

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Tomorrow I'll be going over to Nanhua for Dance with ma bros, Tianyi & Jasper ! :D Miss them quite a lot and I miss the dancers a lot as well ): Oh .. And I especially miss Laoshi ! ): Glad to be able to go home tomorrow (Y)

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Side Note: Stretched just now after 1240357238958 years and I felt so horribly stiff. I was stiff before but this is much worse )': Need to do so much more dancing + exercising + stretching. #determined Motivation level 0 Sigh.


Ok hope that there will be Zodall outing next week or this weekend before Elson + Isaac Ng goes to China !! Yeah they going couple trip hahahahahah; KEEDZ they going on school trip ~ Hope they have a good trip and don't turn into some weird China guy when they come back O.O 5 weeks without my bff and the annoying devil ohno ): Have a safe + enjoying trip guys ♥♥♥



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"Yes. I still like you."
- Do you acknowledge it?

爱情学测 - 棒棒堂 ♥♥

Hey everyone ! (: Taking a lil' time off studying actually, 'cause I've studied everything I should for today ^^ *applause* Really glad that it's productive studying today ! ♥ Haven't had that in a long time ): But today was real good :D


As you've seen, I've changed the layout of the blog ! :P I guess paying attention in WEBGRA lessons really paid off 'cause now I understand the designing for Html so much better !! ^^ Gotta love Mr Aung for that ♥♥ I decided to change everything into a greyish soft-pink theme with flowers ! (: The header's new as well, CUSTOMIZED in fact hehhhhhh (: Love Photoshop for making everything so easy wheeeeeeee ~

Went for a soft flower theme 'cause I've recently fell in love with flowery stuffs ! ♥♥ I don't know why and it's kinda random I know .________. But it's beautiful and that's all that matters anyway ^^

Ok enough about my blog.

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Decided to blog about some people I miss dearly ): Haven't seen them since forever and I'm really looking forward to the 31st of this month ! ♥


Can't believe that Chan's been back for almost 2 months already .. Out of these, I've seen her for only less than 1 week ! I wish I spent more time with her and I miss her so bad. There are so many things we have to do together and so many more outing we should be going to !! What happened to the beach, to shopping, to movies and to swimming and all that.


And that's why I'm really looking forward to Stayover @ Chan's on the 31st ♥♥♥ It'll be a sisters thing and it's been more than half a year since I stayed over with them O.O I remember having a buffet, watching Christmas movies and sleeping on cozy mattresses (though I slept on the sofa) for the previous sleepover ! :D

Yeah we're the typical girls sleepover you expect ~ But it's real fun (:

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And I've said this a gazillion times but I MISS DANCING !! Argh.


The previous practice for Anyhow Art was 2 weeks ago .. ): And I haven't actually found the motivation to go down for Sunday practices in the longest of time ._____. #guilty But I'll find the time after exams I'm sure of it ! ♥♥ I miss stretching and I think the lack of stretching is the reason for my back hurting everyday now ): Actually I only want to stretch my back hahahahaah I have absolutely ZERO MOTIVATION to stretch my splits ^^

Looking forward to Anyhow Art 2013 ♥ 4th Anyhow Art for me this year (:
Can't wait for the rehearsals and the mass practices and the endless days in the studio to start
#postanyhowart2011syndrome #postanyhowart2012syndrome


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Back to my Winx Club, Bye ! ♥
Oh Mommy's baking muffins for me today wheeeeeeeee ^^

能不能给我一首歌的时间 － 周杰伦 ♥
Definitely a sad song, but I really love the melody hehhhh #random

Hi everyone (: The week has half-passed and I'm pretty free these few days ♥ Well of course school has officially ended lessons as of last Tuesday. It's study break up till exam week next week, though I only have one paper: MEDSOC ): I love Ms Tess a lot and I enjoy learning about MEDSOC but I'm not exactly elated about having exams on it sighhhhh.


Been studying the past 2 days with Joelle + Jonghan in school !! ♥ The morning was great 'cause we had a productive session in the library and I had a nice cozy talk with my girl :D Watched Conjuring in the evening with Gofar, Nick, Joel, Daryl, Rong & Arabelle ^^ It was good but I hid my face in my hands most of the time anyway ~ Worth the watch though people, ♥ Do catch it in cinemas alright !!



I'm only blogging 'cause recently I've had many confusing and not-really-contradicting-but-mixed-up views on certain matters .. And I don't exactly feel comfortable about it.

Honestly I'm not someone who like to force my opinion on others and I rather let other have their own opinions .. ♥ But sometimes it hurts when everyone's opinion is against yours. I don't blame people when they think differently from me .. I just don't enjoy it either. And though I don't say it, it kinda hurts sometimes. Sometimes I wish everyone saw things in the same light as I do but I know it's not possible .______.

So I don't force it, nor do I disagree or anything. I just wish things would get better eventually, ♥ I really really want everyone to understand. I really do. And I know nobody means any harm, in fact everyone mean well. I thank everyone for that.

It's a choice. I hope everyone respects and understands it ♥ Because I love so many of my friends and I'd be most glad if everyone understood how I felt.

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There are days you'd make me feel horrible, so horrible that I couldn't concentrate on anything else because I feel so low inside. And there are days you'd make me feel amazing .. ♥ Great, wonderful, that I can't concentrate on anything else because I just smile non-stop.

It may be a little thing .. But in my eyes it's magnified.
Because it's you, everything about you matter. It really does. ♥ You really do. ♥

Make Me A Fool - 小煜 ♥♥
It's definitely his best composition and the lyrics are super meaningful (:
Please please please really listen to it alright !

Though my wishes came late, it's better late than never. And I was pretty busy the entire day with NDP so I'm only free to post now ): But I wanted to post when my memory's still fresh so .. Here's my post for Singapore's 48th National Day !! :D

For my part, I basically slept my morning away but I still woke up sleepy anyway ): Relaxed a bit before I headed over to PA for preparations (: Had a great time talking to Nic during the waiting time and I'm glad to be able to catch up with him ! ♥ And I slept on the bus there HAHAHAHAHAH #typicaljoanna #foreversleeping


The rest of the waiting part is pretty much the same but took photos with our in-charge(s) and they are really great people ^^


Well .. The performance part went exceptionally well today, with the well wishes from many friends of mine .. ♥♥ Thank you people :D And I was mass-tweeted thereafter that they saw me on screen OMG ._______. #dontliketobeontv But the performance went well and that's all that matters ! ^^ Finale was gooooooood and I felt pride in singing the National Anthem (probably the first since I was p3 or something)

The performers + in-charge(s) + helpers had an After Party with DJ Aldrin !! ♥ Good songs with Good Parkour Stuntmen + Spending time with DI people (: And we watched a video based on "behind-the-scenes" cheering only when Laoshi appeared ! ^^ Love how adorable he is, really. I'm really glad that he was around today, ♥


Had supper with Liming, Xiuhui, Shien & Aloy today !! :D BBQ Stingray + Carrot Cake .. SHIOK ♥ It was good talking to them as well, before I went home ~

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Personally, it's the best National Day I've ever spent and I feel great (: I've never felt so much national pride as I have today and I hope everyone feels it as well .. ♥ #patriotic Seriously, it's good. .. For everyone who contributed to the success of NDP2013, Thank you :D Because I've had such a wonderful time and I don't regret at all !!


Ps. Saw Jasper today hahahahah !! I miss him so much omg ): But we talked a bit and that kinda made my day (:



Pps. Found out the name of my dull-green biker .. Nigel you're amazing and you're beyond adorable I swear ♥ I'll miss you !!



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Today .. I realized.
I guess I'm not so special after all.

From CR3 .. Till now ♥ There were almost a gazillion changes .. Formations, Moves, Props .. Even up till today our positions changed ! But we made it anyway.

Hi everyone ! ♥  Today's 07/08 and it's 2 more days to National Day ^^ I know I've been avoiding mentioning about my involvement in this year's NDP Parade but I decided to sit down and do a proper post on it 'cause it's just 2 days away :D Honestly I'm not someone who used to be patriotic to my country .. But as the years go by, I've grown to love it more (:


I was crazy over singing National Day Songs once .. When I was in Primary School :P Then the trend died down in my Secondary School life ): But mainly because the songs were horrible by then ~ It only occurred to me this year that I really love my country, ♥ They say being in the actual parade makes you feel this way :D And I'm happy to be part of it then !!


Basically I'll be dancing in an item for NDP Parade this year, under PA NDP ^^ But I'll spare the details 'cause I don't want anybody to particularly watch/don't watch that item -.- Friends, Family, Haters alike ! You should watch NDP 'cause it's our National Day ♥

I can assure you that it's an amazing show this year, my friends who have watched can testify !! ♥ I know there were controversial views about the theme song .. But I personally feel that it isn't as bad as the one last year ._______. It'll be a good show, so everyone please remember to catch it on television or if you're watching it live .. EVEN BETTER !! ^^


Today's the NDP Celebration in Nanhua, and I really wished I was there ): Back in that hall .. Singing stupid NDP songs with them, watching boring performances from fellow students ~ And we'd take pictures after that, go out for lunch and cram up Clementi Mall .. ♥ Most importantly .. I miss the morning I sat there with my dancers (': Sitting there waiting for our service awards for all we've done for NHDS ♥♥

Today, my juniors are getting that award .. And I'm beyond proud for them (:



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Anyway it's Hari Raya Puasa tomorrow and it's been an awfully tiring month for most of my muslim friends so I hope they have a great celebration tomorrow ! ♥♥ Especially to my favorite Matrep Syariff ..


Aniq ..


Min ..


And last but not least, GOFAR ! (I'll be sending you pictures of food till 720 I swear)


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Hehhhh everyone have an amazing National Day holiday !! ♥ Whether or not you're staying in Singapore, enjoying the celebrations or just out with your friends .. Have a great time ^^ For Poly Kids, mug hard this weekend hahahahahahah :P I'll be mugging too ):


I miss Zodall, Sigh ):

And I miss you.


And lastly .. The song I scream out loud every Saturday for the past 2 months .. ♥
"Many stories .. One Singapore"

Hey (: I decided to blog today 'cause I'm not real sleepy yet heheheh ^^ Oh a side note: To those who have asked me, yep I'm performing for NDP hahahahah ♥ #patriotic

But I'm gonna blog about something else today though ~ I always say that but I end up doing quick updates anyway oops :P But I'll really talk about something else today alright ^^

Honestly it's been 7 complete months into 2013 and now we're already in August. My life definitely took a turn at the end of March towards Mid-April O.o For the better or for worse, well it's both ways I believe (: Definitely I've met amazing people, who have changed my life for the better with each day .. ♥ But I've also lost people I've always wanted to held on so tight to.

I can't say that I've made the best decisions since March .. With my job, my personal life and enrolment into Poly. But I walked a step at a time with the people who loved me so dearly and held me strong till April .. When everything changed. I'm honestly thankful for the group of friends I have now .. Zodall, Heimdall, T102, Nachurros, MCM, NHNP and all ! ♥ Definitely I love them beyond words and even '96, Dancers .. Everyone :D

But there are days when I wonder if I didn't make that decision at that point in time .. Would everything have been different? There were definitely many decisions I made around late March, which changed me entirely ♥♥ Which one? Well I'll keep that with me.

As I look back to that turning point .. I realize how things passed me by so fast. It's already been over 4 months since FOC, when I met that overly-attached subgroup of mine !! ♥ It's been over 3 months since I met T102, my lovely Kambings classmates (': The semester is ending and it'll probably be yet another turning point in 2013. It's kinda scary how there are many turning points in just 365 days .. But that's what Poly life does to you I guess.

And then I realize that I'm 17 and everything's different from when I was 16. When I was 16, I didn't enjoy the taste of alcohol. I detest people who smoke. I hate using slangs or mixing the languages around in one conversation. Short forms were disgusting and Twitter/Instagram was just NO. Wearing baggy clothings were cool, and Dance was life ♥ (Well it still is.) There was nothing I'd like better than to stay in the Dance studio for hours, walk around Singapore and jog around.

When I'm 17, it changed. Of course, I'm still that lazy person that brings 1 pathetic bag-pack for camps, wears slippers to Vivocity 'cause it's near, never replace a earpiece though one side is spoilt and the other has loose wires. But it's different now.

Anybody that follows me know how much I tweet/insta ._____. #guilt I stopped using "Okay." but end up using "K" and I even type "LOL" at times O.O I definitely don't smoke but I'm fine if I have friends who smoke (Not judgmental type.) and drinking Alcohol has become a new cool in so many people. I don't dance as much anymore .. Though I still love that feeling of jumping around and turning around in that studio .. ♥ Nobody could ever replace that feeling (':

Life changes, People change. But that's something we can do nothing about.


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Sometimes, I wish people would stop judging. Stop telling me how it's different now .. Stop looking at me with that prejudice when you never knew me in the first place. It's scary, because people can say horrible stuffs about you or look at you in a terrible way when they never knew that kind of shits you went through.

I don't have much of a temper, but I'm someone easily hurt. I don't get angry easily but I definitely get upset very very very easily ): Sometimes I wish somebody understood.

To my friends who are reading this .. How much do you understand me? Have you wondered?

只要你还记得 - 小煜 ♥
It's a rather old song and it's quite sad but it's meaningful anyhow.